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Here you go Pan..
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Zenstyle;611197 wrote: OK, enough of beating up on yourself. You can't change the past. You can, however, alter the future. So... concentrate on that Pan and look forward to feeling better again - feeling like you did a month ago...

Yeah, before hubby came back. I'm not blaming him.

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Pan -icked;611201 wrote: Starts, I know what my old posts are. I remember every one of them. I remember the transformation. This is why I sound so stupid. I KNOW. This is why I am so stupid.

Sometimes its better to actually re read them, the feelings you felt when writing them will come back rather than relying on your memory to do that.

[ronnie]

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pan you are not stupid sometimes we get a little lost but we always find our way back

[Pan]

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Thanks Starts.

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I just wish I knew why.

[Pan]

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The house of cards hey? Not a bad thought. If I can build up the house day by day, it will give me something to improve upon.

[Pan]

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Now, do I actually have any cards? Probably not. In the other house along with most of my needed posessions. Like my sewing machine.

[Pan]

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I don't know that he is coming back actually. His silence is deafening.

[Pan]

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Yes. The conversation apparently went along the lines of me cheating on him, I think. Well, I sent a drunk email telling him that I didn't give a shit if he thought he couldn't trust me. I don't actually remember the conversation, unfortunately. It's only been one day since that I haven't spoken to him, but not like him at all. Who knows what tonight will bring. I don't know if I'm ready to speak to him yet tho.

[Pan]

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And, I must say, all I do is walk the dogs on the beach, watch TV and/or get on here. I live such an exciting life.

[Pan]

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Hey, this is a general post Zen. It will make entertaining reading I spose.

I sincerely thank each and every one of you. I'm not crying anymore and I do feel more optimistic.

[Pan]

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Well, shit! I must have sounded bad, to say the least.

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Zenstyle;611223 wrote: Well, when it comes to getting "clean" everyone has to concentrate on themselves first and foremost so try not to dwell on the situation with your husband too much right now. You have your hands full getting yourself balanced. Once you're there you can deal with everything else...

Absolutely, plus by then you will see everything in a different light so your approach will be different

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I also just remembered that I can't remember when I last ate.