Apologies.

[Pan]

I seem to have upset a few people and I'm really sorry. The post was sent while I was drinking and was not the wisest move. However a couple of responses in particular upset me to the point that I cannot stay around anymore.

I am now 5 Days AF and NF. I started Day 1 the following day after that post. I haven't been back online since until tonight and after reading the attacks I nearly didn't make it to Day 6.

Again, I sincerely apologise for upsetting those I offended.

To the some of you who felt the need to attack back in such a savage manner, again, I am sorry, but I didn't think I deserved that.

Sorry if this upsets anyone.

[Guest]

Apologies.

well done on the five days Paniked, hope you will be up to 80 again real soon.

[Evie.Lou]

Apologies.

Pan, How about this....Lets LET BY GONES BE BY GONES ???
ALL OF US ....REhashing the past gets us nowhere.Absolutely NOWHERE. I don't want to see you leave here. You need us and we need you.
I say lets just stay focused on what we do want, which is for us ALL to heal from the devastating effects that the disease of ALCOHOLISM has had on us MIND, BODY and SOUL !!!
Keep our eyes straight ahead on the prize.
A SOBER LIFE FILLED WITH LOVE, PEACE AND JOY !!!!!!!!!!!

[Heavenly]

Apologies.

Just stay and ignore the hassle ... tis usual with alcoholics ... I have been on both

sides ... attacker and attacked ... but now I've just got 2 years sober, I am more able to let it go ...

DON'T GIVE UP GIVING UP !!

[Lavande]

Apologies.

I'm sorry that you felt so attacked. That's not what we're here for, at least I'm not!

My mother used to tell me that 'People who live in glass houses shouldn't throw stones'.

I just wish that we all would remember how stupid we were or could be when we were drinking. Who the hell here hasn't had a bad day or two? I think a little forgiveness is in order here. No one should attacked here or feel the need to attack someone else!

Pan, I truly hope that you are OK and hanging in there regardless of the attitudes of others. Focus on yourself and your goals.

All the best,
Lavand€e

[swans]

Apologies.

Pan, there is no reason for you to leave this site. If what you wrote was under the influence of A. Just turn a new leaf and start again.
Thats why we are all here, to kick that habit. If you hurt others while drunk, don't drink while posting. But keep racking up those AF days.

[DeeBee]

Apologies.

Stick around Pan -- we are here to cheer you along.
Well done on notching up those AF days again -- you are sounding focused:-)

[IAD]

Apologies.

Pan.....if I worried about the times people jumped on my ass for saying something, Il'd be a nervous wreak !! Take the cratiek......and move on, some of it was uncalled for some of it was.....Oblade, Oblada life goes on! Ha! Like it was said before.......Sometimes we are the pegions, sometimes the statue.......Stick around........we need ya ! LOL IAD.

[Angelcakes]

Apologies.

Hi Pan, I'm really really glad to see you back. And I KNEW you'd be doing it even if you weren't here...you gave your word. Yay for Day 6!
What you wrote is certainly not the worst thing ever written here...it won't be the last conflict. As Evie said don't let it distract you from the ultimate goal...getting sober.
I'm off to start TND...I hope to see you there!

xo

[Mackeral]

Apologies.

Pan we all say and do stuff we regret..Not everyone apologises..Good for you and i hope you stick around..

[Guitarista]

Apologies.

Pan,
Stick around, or i'll kick yer ass! Love ya...........G,x

[Seacailin]

Apologies.

I hope you will stay Pan and well done on the AF and NF time. Good for you.

[rubywillow]

Apologies.

Pan, it was the AL talking when you posted, and it was the AL that got its ass kicked right back. No one who comes here sincere and sober should feel the need to leave. Thats a tall order some times for us, but its how people can feel some protection in being able to have lucid, sober conversations about our problems and how to help them. ONLY when we're sober does anything stick, you see? I hope you stick! LOL

[beautifulred]

Apologies.

Pan....we need you and you need us.....STAY! dag nab it!

[jane jane]

Apologies.

I haven't posted in a few months, but I thought I'd chime in and say PLEASE don't leave, Pan. The time to drift away and say goodbye is when you've really conquered your problem---not right in the middle of your struggle, when you need a community of supporters!

I stopped posting, and really even reading the posts much, when I felt I'd finally become the kind of drinker I so longed to be for years. I found my "moderation style" and it has worked for many months now (I'm not counting, but basically since the past Christmas holidays, more or less.) For the first time ever (and I have quit many, many times, sometimes for a couple of months) I'm thinking, "yeah, I get it now, I can DO this 'my way.'"

It's just a matter of finding "your way." I allow myself two glasses of pinot grigio on Saturdays and Sundays...PERIOD. Monday-Friday---total abstinence. When I pour that second glass, I say a prayer asking for help to NOT continue on to that third one, no matter how delicious it's tasting, and so far...I'm good with it. Popping a few grapes or apple slices helps immensely, as wine tastes yucky with sweet fruit (to me, anyway.) I stay away from good cheese when I'm having those two glasses---because cheese is soooooo good with wine!

Total deprivation didn't work for me---led to relapse after relapse. But that's just me, and that's why this wonderful site is called "MY Way Out," not "ONE Way Out"!

Good to meet you. I'll check in periodically, and hope to read more of your good progress. Believe me, five whole days is fabulous!