Just thought i would share my experience on being a 'dry drunk', as some have asked what it is.
For me, being a dry drunk was a huge part of my alcoholism. I am a binger, rather than an every day drinker. I would go on a large binge, have the withdrawal, and decide that I was NEVER going to drink again. And I meant it. The first couple of days after 'recovering' I would be great. Happy. Confident in my ability to stay sober, and not needing a drink. I would keep myself occupied, and often decided to do something 'major' like clean the house top to bottom(every nook and cranny), paint a room or fix the garden. This gave me a great feeling of achievement. Usually after 5 days to a week after a serious binge I would start thinking about booze. Thoughts would creep into my head about wine, and if I drank alone no one would know or be harmed, or if i went out to the local and just had a couple, then got some wine for home, that would be great.
Everyone close to me knows about my alcoholism, and my binges, and I know that 1 is never enough. So for me to drink(which could well turn into 4-5 days) I would have to be alone, or face my family trying to stop me. I would become 'restless, irritable and discontent' I wouldnt be drinking, but boy would I let everyone know I wasnt. I would become unbearable to live with. Because deep down thats what I wanted.
It would always get to a stage where I would cause an argument to get people out of my space, so that I could drink alone, how I wanted, without those who loved me telling me what to do. It was me me me, and everyone elses fault about everything. I could get up, walk out and blame everyone else for everything. I would hurt others so that I could feed my mental obsession, which at times could be unbearable.
Today, a huge part of my sobriety is being able to seperate the mental obsession and the physical craving. The one doesnt work without the other, and as long as I can keep away the mental obsession, then the first drink will not touch my lips, hence I keep away the physical craving of drinking.
Just thought some might be interested in my experience, as it has helped me no end. :thanks:
For me, being a dry drunk was a huge part of my alcoholism. I am a binger, rather than an every day drinker. I would go on a large binge, have the withdrawal, and decide that I was NEVER going to drink again. And I meant it. The first couple of days after 'recovering' I would be great. Happy. Confident in my ability to stay sober, and not needing a drink. I would keep myself occupied, and often decided to do something 'major' like clean the house top to bottom(every nook and cranny), paint a room or fix the garden. This gave me a great feeling of achievement. Usually after 5 days to a week after a serious binge I would start thinking about booze. Thoughts would creep into my head about wine, and if I drank alone no one would know or be harmed, or if i went out to the local and just had a couple, then got some wine for home, that would be great.
Everyone close to me knows about my alcoholism, and my binges, and I know that 1 is never enough. So for me to drink(which could well turn into 4-5 days) I would have to be alone, or face my family trying to stop me. I would become 'restless, irritable and discontent' I wouldnt be drinking, but boy would I let everyone know I wasnt. I would become unbearable to live with. Because deep down thats what I wanted.
It would always get to a stage where I would cause an argument to get people out of my space, so that I could drink alone, how I wanted, without those who loved me telling me what to do. It was me me me, and everyone elses fault about everything. I could get up, walk out and blame everyone else for everything. I would hurt others so that I could feed my mental obsession, which at times could be unbearable.
Today, a huge part of my sobriety is being able to seperate the mental obsession and the physical craving. The one doesnt work without the other, and as long as I can keep away the mental obsession, then the first drink will not touch my lips, hence I keep away the physical craving of drinking.
Just thought some might be interested in my experience, as it has helped me no end. :thanks:
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