Having a Tough Time!!

[Jmacboi]

I've been trying to stop what I do over and over again and it just doesn't seem to work. Everytime I'm off either Beer, Wine, or other booze for a few days to a week, I think I can have one or two and then it's off to the races. I'm trying to cold turkey it, like I've done many times before, but this time I'm just not doing well. I broke down today and had to buy some Beer, and also a Bottle of Coconut Rum that's only 42 Proof, but in just a few minutes I drank about half of it to just feel kind of normal. I used to be functional when I drank, even starting in the mornings, but it's getting worse and I'm no longer functional when I'm coming off a binge. I found this site, and thought I'd post for the first time. This is not easy to say the least. I'm 57 Years Old and I know I have to stop after many years of Alcohol abuse. How do I cold turkey it this time, and get functional again. I've been probably drinking a lot this time for at least a couple months or more. I'm just really worried about going through the DT's like I have in the past, and I don't want to go into the Dr. or Hospital to deal with this. I'm calm right now, but I've had a couple beers and a half bottle of Coconut Rum.

[Thankful]

Having a Tough Time!!

Jmacboi, first of all, job well done seeking some help and support. This is a great place.

Do you think you can stop drinking tonight and switch to water?

I'm here with you if you want to chat.

Love, Me
:l

[57Shelby]

Having a Tough Time!!

First of all, Jmacboi, welcome! I am glad you found the site. You will find a lot of support here. My suggestion is that you download the book and read it. It is full of good advice and will outline the program. There are supplements you can purchase to help with the cravings and to help heal your body. There are also prescription medications that are discussed in the book and how to use them. If you do not want to go to the doctor, they can be purchased from online pharmacies with out a prescription.
There is a ton of knowledge, wisdom, experience, compassion, and support from wonderful people just like yourself. Some are totally AF, some are just starting out. We are all in the same boat, even though our story is a bit different. We are all fighting the demon ALCOHOL.
Keep posting, get the book and supplements, keep reading and connecting with people. You CAN do this!!!
Shelby

[ronnie]

Having a Tough Time!!

Hi & welcome Jmacboi,
You have come to the right place, but first of all make sure you drink lots & lots of water, is there any way you can tip the rest of the rum away!!!
There are herbal supps. about, I take vit. B for stress and also you can get L-glut for cravings, they are all herbal so they wont do you any harm. I only joined here in March and before I can try and mod. my drinking, people suggested that I go 30 day A/F and I thought that I would never be able to do that but I am now on day 23 A/F and as time goes on it does get a bit easier.
You have to keep yourself very busy, have you read the MWO book yet?, you can download it. plus it might be an idea to change your daily routine for a while, try and keep away from drink.
I dont know if this is any help to you, but please keep posting & reading on here as there are lots of lovely people that will be able to help you alot better than me, as they have been here alot longer.
On this site we never judge anyone, and I for one have made some really lovely friends here just by posting alot.
You can do this and you can beat the booze and you will feel much better for doing so.
stay strong
Love ronnie xx

[Jmacboi]

Having a Tough Time!!

I don't think it's going to happen tonight, but I have to make it tomorrow for sure. I've already started putting it back in me this evening, just so I could calm my nerves. I hate it when I feel like I'm coming apart at the seams, and I can't even lay down or I feel like I'm going to breathing. It kind of scares me, but I don't want to go into the Dr. or anything else. I'm just going to try to slow down gradually throughout the night and hopefully be able to be somewhat productive tomorrow. I was really starting to get the shakes and feeling totally strange and panicking inside. I found this site when I was looking for solutions to DT's. I think I'm going to like it here. Lot's of great postings. It's good to know there is something other than AA.

[Thankful]

Having a Tough Time!!

You sound like you have been through a lot. My heart goes out to you. We have all been there. And you have received some great advice thus far.

I tried for years to quit and this place worked for me (18 months sober) and I went cold turkey. I'm not the only one here who can say that, so it can be done. You really have to believe in yourself. You sound ready to change your life, but now is the time for action.

You can do it!! You are stronger than you think.

[Jmacboi]

Having a Tough Time!!

Thanks already! I know this isn't going to be easy at all. It's kind of like I can't put enough into me to keep me from feeling nervous. I'm going to do my best not to buy anymore, but I'm sure I'll drink tonight and hopefully get through this. I hate being an Alcoholic, it really sucks! My ex-wife is and I talked with her earlier, and she just said to slow down a little at a time until my body goes through the adjustment. That's why I went and bought the beer and rum. I didn't want to go through a whole night of dealing with how I've been feeling all day. This obviously isn't my first time I had to quit, but it seems like each time is harder on my old body. Again, thanks and I'm so glad I found this website. I'm going to get good at not drinking one way or the other...

[Thankful]

Having a Tough Time!!

As already mentioned, you need to get some water in you. Really flush your system over the next few days. The first few days are the hardest. Once it's out of your system, it's mostly mind over matter. It's finding what your drinking "triggers" are. Work? Stress? Boredom? Once you find your triggers, you can implement new routines to help avoid them. I am not trying to make this sound simple. I can only share what helped me.

Make the commitment to yourself. Do this for you and no one else. You deserve a healthy and happy life, but only you can give yourself that.

Please comeback often. You will love the people here. Best of luck to you.

Love, Me
:l

[Jmacboi]

Having a Tough Time!!

Thank you so much for just being there online. I really appreciate it. I don't have anyone other than my ex-wife to talke with who understands. She's not much help because she continues to drink. I know I need to stop. Everyone I'm around drinks, so it makes it difficult. I'm sure everyone on this board has the same problems when it comes to that. I'll start pouring water into me to flush out my system.

[ronnie]

Having a Tough Time!!

jmacboi, listen to thankful's last message it is very very true, I can soooo relate to that, a new routine really helped me get to where I am today.
Love ronnie xxx

[Jmacboi]

Having a Tough Time!!

Ronnie, if you're in Australia, what time is it there? Must be early morning or middle of the night? I just noticed that and it caught me by surprise.

[ronnie]

Having a Tough Time!!

Yes I am in Western Austraila and it is now 10.15 am, where are you from???

[Cinders]

Having a Tough Time!!

jmacboi,

If you get the dt's when you stop abruptly, you must be very careful. The withdrawals get worse and worse every time we withdraw.

I am not saying to keep drinking but I am thinking you might need a visit to a doctor for some Librium or Ativan to quit safely.

I know I am going against the flow here but a few of my friends on here who have tried to go "cold turkey" ended up having seizures. That is not a good thing. It can be deadly.

If you can't taper off, go to a doctor.

Afterwards, don't drink again. You simply do not want to do this to yourself over and over again. It is way too painful. Been there, done that.

Cindi

[Thankful]

Having a Tough Time!!

Glad to hear it. I understand being around drinkers and trying to quit. I live with 4 other alcoholics. Three of them actually in the same house. But you know what? Instead of them dragging me down, 2 more joined me in a sober life. My dad quit after heavily drinking for over 50 yrs (about 7 months AF) and my sister who I never thought would quit is about 9 months AF. They saw how happy I was after so many years I wasted and have joined me. Both did it cold turkey as well.

Don't let anyone drag you down! And don't use anyone as an excuse to drink. It's your life. Your choices. You will get there. I have faith in you.

[ronnie]

Having a Tough Time!!

WOW thankful, what a lovely story, its so good to see a happy ending for a change, thanks for sharing that.