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    I screwed up again

    I am drunk tonight. My family wanted to celebrate the year of the flood. And I stupidly joined them. I am drunk. I even told my mom tonight that I want to quit. Course she was drunk and I don't know if she will remember. Every time I get drunk I wish that I was sober. I dunno why that is. I want to quit drinking. I just don't have the willpower to say no. Every time I am drunk I say that I am done. But then a day or two later, I am willing to do this again. Why can't we remember how we felt this way. I need to really do something about this quit. I have been here and stuff, but yet I am drunk. I will promise to you all that I will post daily and not just browse here but post here as well.

    I want to quit now, but I figure I may have a few at the baseball game Tuesday.
    I quit drinking on March 8, 2020. Taking it One Day At A Time and no more taking my quit for granted.

    Also doing it for me. I got to stay sober for me.

    Just consecrate on today and do what you can to remain sober for today and worry about staying sober tomorrow, tomorrow.
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    #2
    I screwed up again

    Drifty :l Can you put down the drink and switch to water? My advice, talk to your mom when you are both sober. You have made a wonderful first step coming here. This forum is a godsend. Reach out to us and we will help you. I am so happy to hear that you are going to post daily. Make a plan, read RJ's book, and really begin your journey. I will be around all evening if you want to chat or just PM (private message) me. Big Hugs! :l

    Guess what? YOU CAN DO IT AND YOU WILL!

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      #3
      I screwed up again

      Keep posting and sharing how you are really feeling/ struggling. Sometimes this can be the only place you feel safe to be honest.... I'm sorry your Mom is still struggling too.

      I can relate to you about the willpower thing. Sometimes we just have to decide if we love to drink more than we hate the consequences of it.
      If you do not live the life you believe, you will believe the life you live.

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        #4
        I screwed up again

        that sucks that you feel the way you do. why not try to give it up tomorrow

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          #5
          I screwed up again

          Hiya Drifty, how you doing today?

          Saying "NO" is such a big thing for me -- not only saying NO to drinking but also to everything else I don't want in my life. I think it's something that has to be practiced.

          Drifty, you can't just "want" to quit, you have to get a plan together and arm yourself with every tool possible.
          *we* are one of your tools. Here to support you on your journey to sobriety.
          "The person who says it cannot be done should not interrupt the person doing it"

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            #6
            I screwed up again

            Hi Drifty and Welcome!

            Drifty, you're a very young woman with hopes and dreams, dreams which I believe are achievable. I figure it's late in Iowa right now so how about you come back here tomorrow and actually start making a serious plan? You write that you've "been here and stuff" but that isn't enough; you've got to dig deeper and maybe read the My Way Out book to understand that there is no magic pill. Everything requires effort.

            I would love you to get control of this drinking thing because you are so young and also because the world needs more Vet assistants. My best wishes.

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              #7
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              Great advice above Alison. I see your light is off, and hope you've toddled off to bed with a massive bottle of water.
              There's quite a few of us just starting off ( My own start date is in two weeks time after an event). The deal for me is that everything has to be in place for when I come back from my trip. I'm reading the RJ book, collecting the supplements, making a pest of myself around here, and hooking up with others due to quit at the same time. In between times I'm moderating and drinking generally as little as I can. Funny thing is, as the reality of my deadline is sinking in, I'm actually REALLY looking forward to making a 'project' of myself.
              Hope this babblefest helps in some small way.
              Bridget.
              If your 8 year old self met you, would they be proud?
              Rejoined life 20/5/19

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                #8
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                Thanks for all the great advice everyone. I just have to get through today and the other days. Its a big feat but with this board I will do it. I just put my quit day on Tuesday due to the game (I may or may not drink.) But from now to then and perhaps even forever I will not drink.
                I quit drinking on March 8, 2020. Taking it One Day At A Time and no more taking my quit for granted.

                Also doing it for me. I got to stay sober for me.

                Just consecrate on today and do what you can to remain sober for today and worry about staying sober tomorrow, tomorrow.

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                  #9
                  I screwed up again

                  Alison,
                  You need to say I can do it...not I dunno if I can do it. Celebrations are never ending, birthdays, baseball games, anniversarys, partys, holidays...they never stop coming. Alcohol never stops being around us. Unfortunately, it is a part of our society and no matter what, we have to learn to live with it around us. So, you have picked June 16th....what is your plan? How are you going to arm yourself to help you meet your goal?
                  Forever loved, forever missed Papa Bear

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