It's so different than I imagined sobriety might be. For the years that I've aspired to be sober I imagined what life would be like with the absence of alcohol. I didn't really get it that something would come in to fill the absence - or that that 'something' would be Life.
I removed the barrier of alcohol and Life came rushing in.
There are so many profound nuances to living -- I have got to write about it all before the novelty wears off. For now I'll just say that until you are free, you probably can't even imagine how much richness there is to living.
Sobriety has become like a "thing" - an entity or something, in that it's something I've worked for, earned, and own. Like if I owned a house - it would be mine and I'd appreciate and remember all that I did to work toward attaining it. And I would take good care of it, respect it, honor it - that's how I feel about my sobriety. It's weird - I didn't know it would be like this.
Now when I wonder what it would be like to drink, or worry if I'll be tempted when around people drinking -- I don't have to convince myself that it's not a good idea. It just doesn't appeal to me at all. I didn't expect this either.
Living life's moments is so much better than merely enduring or escaping them, even when they aren't all that pleasant.
The best part of this new life is discovery. Every day I discover something new about this journey of living, about people, myself, nature, beauty, love, music, humor, work, pain, the past, the present....
If you're still struggling, don't give up. It took me about 4 years from the time I truly admitted to myself that I had a "problem" to get to this day. It is so very worth all the toil!
I removed the barrier of alcohol and Life came rushing in.
There are so many profound nuances to living -- I have got to write about it all before the novelty wears off. For now I'll just say that until you are free, you probably can't even imagine how much richness there is to living.
Sobriety has become like a "thing" - an entity or something, in that it's something I've worked for, earned, and own. Like if I owned a house - it would be mine and I'd appreciate and remember all that I did to work toward attaining it. And I would take good care of it, respect it, honor it - that's how I feel about my sobriety. It's weird - I didn't know it would be like this.
Now when I wonder what it would be like to drink, or worry if I'll be tempted when around people drinking -- I don't have to convince myself that it's not a good idea. It just doesn't appeal to me at all. I didn't expect this either.
Living life's moments is so much better than merely enduring or escaping them, even when they aren't all that pleasant.
The best part of this new life is discovery. Every day I discover something new about this journey of living, about people, myself, nature, beauty, love, music, humor, work, pain, the past, the present....
If you're still struggling, don't give up. It took me about 4 years from the time I truly admitted to myself that I had a "problem" to get to this day. It is so very worth all the toil!
awprint: RUBY Imagine yourself doing What you love and loving What you do, Being happy From the inside Out, experiencing your Dreams wide awake, 
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