i am very tired of running around this loop of be good be bad .. be a little good be very bad.. you know when i first tried alchohol at 17 and 3/4 i hated it!!! i used to leave drink after drink after drink, trying all different types until i eventualy manged to convince myself it tasted good!
Anyway i am now 37 and seem to have done a pretty good job of turning around mty dislike of alchohol!
Does anyone else blame their jobs ..... jobs, lost my poor beautiful brother to suicide, lsot my husband to my best friend when my baby daughter was 4 months old (now probably the best thing that happened to me!!) ...I need some time away I have lost that fight - I earn a very good wage for a very resposible job - but i am tired i cannot be assed anymore.... does anyone feel that way and i do feel absolutely terrible for saying that in the current climate i really do but i am sick and tired of doing this ... maybe at 37 i am hitting a midlife crisis - i'll be buying a convertable next!!! what shall i do? i am f00k4d :upset:
I am tired of fighting this, so tired of dissapointing myself ...sh1t i cant go in tommorow so what do i do - has anyone managed to get time away? i need to heal without the really really tying job - i am not askin for social benefit health i will pay for mysef i just need a month away from everything xx
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