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[dexterhead]

what the hell will it take to get it through my head that this is ruining my life????!!!!!!!
Arrggghhhh!!!!! Finally got started last week ... AF Mon thru Thurs ... then went up to my mom's for the holiday weekend, something i had partly planned to help me stay AF thru the weekend ... ended up sneaking into her cheap brandy both nights after she went to bed .. and got back today and bought wine .. GAAAAHHHH!!!! I was already starting to feel somewhat better last week ... this stupid behavior hurts no one but me. I seem to have so little resolve even though I desperately need to do this. OK, honestly, i just needed to vent a little, .... thanks

[greeneyes]

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Kittyhead, that self-sabatoge is a bitch ain't it? Way to go on the 4 days!! :goodjob: You have looked at the toolbox thread right? Maybe you want to post all over the place here this weekend and we'll help! Let's get a plan together. You can always call me you know! :l

[Nics99]

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Hey DH,

Today is the beginning of a brand new week hun. Get yourself back on the wagon, theres plenty o people on here to give u a leg up

I was where you are this time last week. I was a few days short of a month and just snapped....no reason, no dilemmas or big traumas to blame. Just did it. I was soooo fed up last week, I was just like what IS the point?

But I stopped beating myself up and said here we go again. Day 6 today and I now know what THE point is....hard work this sobriaty lark - but SO worth it.

Good luck on the rest of the week

Nics x

[42cat]

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Hey there, D'Head ... Hop back on the ol' wagon .. The good thing about messing up is that you will always have the option to try again. One weekend mess-up does not have to ruin your great progress - 4 days in a row! Let's do it again, and more!

[The New Me]

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What is it with the sobriety fatigue? Can any of the abstinents tell us why after two weeks in my case, ot a month in D'Head's case, after feeling good, we still want to drink??? Stinking thinking? Wrong supplements? I was doing great, but again, I wanted to drink too...

[Lavande]

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Dexterhead and anyone else newly AF,

Give it a little time.............it gets better, honestly!
I know that we all want an immediate 'cure' but that just doesn't happen.
Be kind to yourselves, healing takes time. This is an ongoing process not just an immediate event. Be sure to eat well balanced meals, get plenty of water, sleep, vitamins, etc.
Everything will come together, you will love the way you feel, promise

[Theme2be]

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I understand and care my friend from Europe.

Continue on to what leans you into what inspires you to encouragement.
Posting here is so brave.
You are brave.

Bravo! You created and inspired another that may have not been so disciplined in light of this disorders misery.

I applaud you.
I admire you.

We are in this together ; may relief consider us a moment in its reprieve.

With consideration and care~

[Boss.man]

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I went through a long phase of "The more I quit the more I sneak-binged". It is very silly, but I did it for months. Sneaking a nip in the middle of the night, only to have it turn into 5 strong drinks. Or buying a bottle "just in case" and then days later attacking it in a way I never consumed alcohol when I drank a lot. The "I'll drink anything" phase, even stuff I hated, to the point of considering the alcohol content of mouthwash.

Just get back and keep going. If you find triggers, make some mental tools to avoid the trigger. Put your mom's booze cabinet in a mental "no go" zone. Learn to bypass the wine aisle, or buy something specifically instead of the wine (Knudsen's fruit juice, sparkling pear, sparkling peach are three I commonly buy). Alcohol free mouthwash is now commonly available.

Lavande has it right: It gets better, honestly!

[meditation mama]

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Hey, Dexterkitty!

I'm sorry you are having a tough start. You know from the past, that sometimes we experience "false start". I believe it is our mind/ego fighting us. I also think that the more we think about it the more power we give it.

So, my advise to you, and the advise I have given myself in the past, is to not give into the thinking. Let it go. Start now and just keep your mind occupied with other things (not AL); movies, exercise or if all else fails, just go to bed.

Think on this: If you begin to understand what you are without trying to change it, then what you are undergoes a beautiful transformation... in other words, let it flow... let it go...

xoxoxo

MM

[tlrgs]

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big hugs to you dexter you will get pass it and comeout smelling like a rose .. you can do this and we are always here for you