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[mama bear]

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Nora - great posts babe.....I don;t know why but the demon;s voice is alittle softer for me now....when he does speak it's LOUD....but he speaks less often......have hope sweetie
and I AM PROUD OF YOU!!!!
Hope that pizza was good!

[IAD]

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Hi Nora......I'm on the Dression slow boat to hell ! Ha! Thank God for Zoloft ! ha! Hang in their !
Wanted to ask you......"What in the hell is in a California Pizza ?" ( Nobody knows...Ha!) Tony

[mama bear]

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How you doing today Nora??

[NoraC]

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Hey guys. No idea what's on a California pizza Tony. :H
Doing ok here. Just heading out to take Scott to the dentist. 2 crowns. So, he won't be a happy camper later.

[mama bear]

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hugs to Scott...poor baby

[K9Lover]

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Hi Nora,
Byrdie's post was spot on, wasn't it? I really appreciated that when I read it. I can identify with the "panic" of not having any alcohol, then overdoing it because you think you're not getting it again. What a vicious cycle! It really is true that it's easier NOT to drink. Anyway I hope you are doing ok, I think of you a lot!
K9

p.s. I think a California pizza has avocadoes, chicken and marijuana on it (they pretend it's cilantro). LOL

[mama bear]

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LOL K9!!!!!

[NoraC]

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5-15-12

If that's true, I'll take a California pizza NOW. I'll just pick off the chicken. :H:H

Told hubby that I wanted to drink this weekend. That went over like a lead balloon. He does not understand. He just thinks - don't drink. Yeah - if only it were that easy. Whatever - I'm just tired of everything right now.

And, yes Byrdie's post was perfect. Describes it very clearly. But, I still want to drink. :upset:

By the way, I won't be drinking. But, the thoughts are still there.

[mama bear]

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take that pill babe....I won't drink with you

[NoraC]

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Shitty day & sick of everything. :upset::upset::upset:

[mama bear]

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what is wrong honey?

[NoraC]

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Nothing major in the grand scheme of things. But, my mantra's are failing me now.

"Is this going to matter a year from now?" - NO

Can't even remember my other mantras at the moment.

Just tired of all the stress at work. Tired of playing taxi driver. Tired of being the person to take care of everything. Tired of being the happy one.

In other words - nothing is wrong. My life is blessed. I have no right to complain about anything.

Thanks for listening, Mama. Back to regularly scheduled programming......

[mama bear]

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complain away...it's theraputic...
but we DO have to have an attitude of gratitude don't we....
and sometimes it's damn hard

[NoraC]

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5-16-12

Well - don't really have anything to talk about. But, feel like I need to try to keep this journal up so I am able to refer back to it. I'm still taking my Naltrexone daily. It's possible that it's helping take the edge off the cravings. At this point, I'm not really sure.

Still down. Not in a complete depression like I have been before. So, I need to think of these things & look at the improvements. I need to go back & read my posts that I want to remember.

Here is one for today:

Happiness is a habit I will develop.
Happiness is created, not waited for.

I bought a couple daily meditation books that look good. "Believing in Myself" and "Meditations for Women who Do Too Much". So, I am looking towards the positive. Taking steps in the right direction.

Today I chose not to drink. Good choice. I'm not thinking about tomorrow. A week from now or a month from now. I did not drink today.

[one2many]

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GOOD for you Nora, you really are heading in the right direction. I believe that meditation is a wonderful tool and will help you greatly!