Nora's journey

[fennel]

I hear you about the zingers. I say go for it!

[NoraC]

Hey Fen - thanks for the good advice :hug:

I am doing much, much better on just letting things go. My brother has even commented on it to me. Actually, other people have to.
I think that when I realized that the court date was only a couple of weeks away, I just sort of crumbled. But, what will be will be. Absolutely nothing that I can do about it. Just deal with it as it comes and hope for the best.
That is exactly the same thing that I need to do regarding my Mom. I want this to work out so much that I am stressing. That will do no good.

I am trying to recognize feelings as they come up and realize what these feelings are and where/why they are coming up. I think the serenity prayer is a great idea. I've also been doing deep breathing.

I love that quote - "Life gets lifey". Wow! Yes - it does and that is the way it is. So, I am going to cope with it the best I can.

Thanks for your support!

[mama bear]

Nora - I am here for you. Lord knows my life has been lifey for a long time...too long, in fact! Money issues, family health issues, work issues....but you know what? I am still vertical and making it happen.
Time to pull out that Superwoman cape and say what I say.....Today will be fine. It could always be worse.
I am so sorry about Casey's court date.....I get it. I would be a wreck too.
I love you

[NoraC]

Mama - big hugs to you. :hug: I love you too. I am actually doing ok. I just wanted to let it out when I felt it instead of holding it in and beginning to obsess about it. Maybe not obsess but just letting things build. That's why I looked up this old thread. Everyone else has so much more and worse going on that I don't want to complain on the Steppers. So, I'm just going to come over here & whine when necessary. :harhar:

[Pavati]

Hi, Nora:

I LOVE that - life gets lifey. So very true.

I have been reading a lot about mindfulness and how it relieves anxiety. I have to say, I have found it to help. Even just five or ten minutes can help slow my brain.

Good luck with all you're facing. Way to go on 66 days - keep it up!

Pav

[Rusty]

Nora, I just got home from CT and just wanted to say that I am so proud of you for having over two months AF! :thumbsup: You sound so strong and just knowing that staying AF is key to getting through the stress of your son's court date. It will help you maintain your resolve because you want to set a good example for him. I say dive into the Zingers! Yum! For many, many years, I tried to control things that were beyond my control, and it was a huge trigger for my drinking, always always! Now, I just let go and let God because trying to control something that's uncontrollable will make me absolutely crazy and I cannot go down that dangerous path once more! I believe in you!!

[NoraC]

Pav - thanks! I haven't really read much on mindfulness but it feels right. When I was younger, I was a much more positive, optimistic person. I have lost that in the last 5-10 years........which means that I lost myself. It has been great getting back to being that person.
By the way, I love your posts. Thank you for writing to me.
PS - I don't think that I've ever told you but I LOVE your avatar. What a perfect quote.

[NoraC]

Rusty - thank you. Thank you for always being so supportive. It means more than you know. :hug:
I told my work today that I would not be in on October 14. I just said that I had personal business and didn't elaborate. I asked Casey if it was ok if I went. He said yes but that his girlfriend will be there. I said I know but that I wanted to be there too. So, it's set.

And, yes - I am so very grateful that I am sober. I can't even imagine going thru all of this in the condition I was in a couple months ago. I was on a collision path. It's scary how bad I was. But, now I will be able to deal with all of this with a clear head. It will be hard for the next couple of months but it will be so much easier than trying to do it while on a path of self destruction.

[Lizann]

Nora, I just happened upon these posts. You seem so much stronger these days and congrats on 66 days! I am here for you. Whine away.

[NoraC]

Ah - thanks Liz :hug: you are always such a sweetie. I'm ok right now but I'm sure I'll be back to whine soon. :rotlf:

[abcowboy]

Nora, here you can have all the "whine" you want without feeling bad about it the next day!

[NoraC]

Thanks Cowboy! I'll be whining here. :rotlf:

[NoraC]

Saw this on Facebook and it really hit home...........

[fennel]

I love the above quote.

[Guitarista]

Just passing through, thought I'd drop in to say :hiya: Nora and y'all!

You know, it's just after midday sunday here, and this morning I was feeling a little sad and sorry for myself. I thought, stuff that, are things really that bad Gman?.....answer.....'Nope, can't say that they are sir'. So I turned to my craft, and recorded a little reggae sort of guitar track. That's a bit better. Now I'm off for a run to shake off these dreary thoughts.

Keep raawkin Nora. Have a great weekend everyone!