Nora's journey

[mama bear]

Nora's journey

let it go babe.....(i know that is easier said than done)
but the bs here just isn't worth being depressed about
be thankful you aren't going through the shit I am soing through!!
that's depressing!!!
call me if you want to talk...I am always here for you

[IAD]

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Nora and Mama......I know I feel like I'm going in circles. Ha! And soon I will catch my tail....Ha! Let's pick ourselves up ! I Be live in my old saying that I have by Dr. Suess......Just read my avatar ! Ha!

[RingingCedars]

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Nora really proud of you for staying strong even if you are struggling with some depression. Honey don't take any of the shit on your shoulders. It simply isn't yours to bear.

Mama chin up and back on track with you girl.:h

[NoraC]

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Tony - I love your Dr. Seuss saying. You are so right!

?Be who you are and say what you feel because
those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.?
Dr. Seuss


RC - thank you friend.:l

[mama bear]

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thanks guys!!

[NoraC]

Nora's journey

4-28-12

Had strong urges today. I don't know that I can really call them cravings. I wasn't craving alcohol as much as craving the feeling. Wanting to get out of my head. To forget about the depression. Forget about worry & unhappiness. Just go into that place of buzzed.
I held that antabuse pill in my hand this morning and started to put it back in the pill case. Actually reached for the case but then swallowed the pill instead. I know that I need to rely more on my tools and fighting the urge instead of just taking the antabuse. But, I do feel that I have made progress. 6 months ago I would have stopped the antabuse when all this stress started and counted the days until I could drink. Now, I am realizing what I am doing and fighting it.
I am concerned because I'll be stopping the antabuse and the naltrexone mid week because of the endoscopy/colonoscopy. I'm scared to be on either of those meds during the procedures. Just need to stay aware of what I'm doing.
Oh well......One Day At a Time.

[hadit]

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Nora C Thinking of you. Can only advise you to get back on AB as soon as the procedure is completed. I have to make up my mind soon whether to continue with AB or go it alone. Not sure whether I am ready yet. over 40 days af! good luck!

[mama bear]

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Nora...do you think the AB will have an adverse effect? Can you ask your doc if you can stay on it?
When do you see the counselor again???
Do you slip in and out of depression??? If so, maybe you need stronger meds.....and of course no booze
I am so proud of you for popping that pill babe....

[mama bear]

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EXCELLENT JOB BOOZER!!

[NoraC]

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Boozer - that is great!

Mama - they did just adjust my AD. So, that should help a lot. She said that we need to get that stabilized and then working on the alcohol will fall into place. Not in those simple terms, of course.:H I definitely need to stop the Nal from what I've seen when I've googled it. The AB may be ok but to be honest, I'm scared to have it in my system. I'm going to be asleep. Who knows what they could give me when I'm out. I just think it would be better to not have it in my system. So, if I time it well, I'll have no chance to drink anyway. I'll be too busy prepping for the procedure. :H

[mama bear]

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Hopefully they won't pour any champagne down your gullet:H
I have honestly tried to quit googling my meds.....the internet will scare the crap out of you
I thrust you to know you own body and do the right thing...
just remember I have really big feet:H


not

[NoraC]

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I know - it can scare you to death when you Google your meds. I guess they won't be pouring champagne down my gullet (darn it!). :H:H

[mama bear]

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I know...right!!
I thought that make you laugh.
Just think though....if they did, you would poop it out for a few days!!:wow:
EEEEWWWWWWWW:H

[NoraC]

Nora's journey

mama bear;1307237 wrote: I know...right!!
I thought that make you laugh.
Just think though....if they did, you would poop it out for a few days!!:wow:
EEEEWWWWWWWW:H

:H:H:H

[NoraC]

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4-30-12

Really had drinking thoughts again today. Dang it. Think that I'm getting better and then here come those dang thoughts again. Oh well, important thing is that I didn't drink.

Took a full Naltrexone today. Will see how I do. Don't feel much right now. A little spacey but that could be because it's late. Hopefully, I won't be all drugged out tomorrow. If, I feel all stoned again tomorrow, then I don't know I'll ever be able to increase my dose. Time will tell.

Still sad about everything that has gone on here on the forum. I'm hoping that everything will calm down and hurts will ease. Another friend has announced he was leaving today. I will miss him. Techie - thank you friend. Have a wonderful life.