LIFE IS A BITCH ANS THEN YOU DIE

[tlrgs]

LIFE IS A BITCH ANS THEN YOU DIE
now don't get me wrong .. i love life most of the time ..but there comes a time..where you just cant find the end of everything..they say you are suppose to be happy ..life is new ..but where..yeah there is a change in me ..but how long do i wait for whom ever..i want to be a part of my life..now.. its really hard to deal with not knowing why they are the way they are.. when they wont even give you the time of day..all i do is wait ..for what the unknown to happen .to push me over the edge and if that happen..what state of mind will that bring me to..the unknown..but i really do know what could happen..and this time there no turning back..
the awareness i have now is so powerful..at times it hurts to think..of the Way things are and the way i would like life to be ..
but here i am thinking instead of drinking..yes life a bitch and then you die..
but not today just because I'm on my way ..as living on life terms..

just me thinking out loud

[cyclefan]

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roger, don't give your power to other people.

[CS04]

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Roger, if you need to talk, we can talk.

[Blue Sky]

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Mr T

Stop worrying about what could and might happen. Haven't you dealt with everything life has thrown at you so far? You can't change some things, you just have to deal with them. Focus on what you can change (like drinking or not drinking - you have a choice there).

Get some sleep, tomorrow is a new day.

[startingover]

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Thinking of you Mr T.
Sometimes life does look rough and as if it will never get better, it always does though.
Take care

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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T keep strong buddy, things arent always a bleak as they seem. Tomorrow is another day and dawn will break, bright and full of life and promise.

[Popeye]

LIFE IS A BITCH ANS THEN YOU DIE

Seeing things the way we want them and not the way they are. Waiting for things that might never happen; will never happen. The course of a life dependant on the will and wishes of another. We can never truly know anybody else and they can never know us. There are always hidden aspects that we all hide from the world.
Who of us is truly happy?
A starving man with a meal in front of him or a man with so much food he has to throw some away?
Someone alone a world full of promise, or a man with ten lovers?
Contentment is hard to find. By being grateful for the great deal that I do have, I'm finding it more each day.
Thanks for your thoughts Roger.

[greeneyes]

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:l T.

[Cinders]

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T,

I read your post so differently than everyone else. Am I way off?

I took it to mean that even though life is a b*tch and then you die, it is better to take it head on and deal with it than to run and hide.

the awareness i have now is so powerful..at times it hurts to think..of the Way things are and the way i would like life to be ..
but here i am thinking instead of drinking..yes life a bitch and then you die..
but not today just because I'm on my way ..as living on life terms..

This was a great post to read for me, today. Thank you.

Love,
Cindi

[bloggy]

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Popeye;670330 wrote: Seeing things the way we want them and not the way they are. Waiting for things that might never happen; will never happen. The course of a life dependant on the will and wishes of another. We can never truly know anybody else and they can never know us. There are always hidden aspects that we all hide from the world.
Who of us is truly happy?
A starving man with a meal in front of him or a man with so much food he has to throw some away?
Someone alone a world full of promise, or a man with ten lovers?
Contentment is hard to find. By being grateful for the great deal that I do have, I'm finding it more each day.
Thanks for your thoughts Roger.

Thanks Popeye- that was a brilliant post!

[rubywillow]

LIFE IS A BITCH ANS THEN YOU DIE

Rog, you know I love you. I SO wish I could make it better for you, but I know you'll pull through this. Its OK to feel bad sometime - we can't be happy every minute. I'm glad you're sharing here, you have so many people who love you. I'll be in touch, OK?

[caysea]

LIFE IS A BITCH ANS THEN YOU DIE

Hi T
This is life without self medication. Raw at times but wouldn't want it any other way. We face the good and the bad sober.Thanks for all the inspiration you give us.

Stay Healthy and Keep Fighting
AF 5-16-08

[tlrgs]

LIFE IS A BITCH ANS THEN YOU DIE

Cinders;670360 wrote: T,

I read your post so differently than everyone else. Am I way off?

I took it to mean that even though life is a b*tch and then you die, it is better to take it head on and deal with it than to run and hide.




This was a great post to read for me, today. Thank you.

Love,
Cindi

yes cinder and i guess you can make any meaning out of it ..just thoughts .. thank you all really... sue is coming home today and will be here within the hour or so .. well i have to go pick her up .. till then later .. thanks love you all and big hugs

[sosad61]

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KTAB;670209 wrote: T keep strong buddy, things arent always a bleak as they seem. Tomorrow is another day and dawn will break, bright and full of life and promise.

Totally agree. About a week ago I hit rock bottom, as I posted in another thread, I'm not out of the woods yet (still drinking, but greatly reduced). I was so sad and crying every day. Often for hours, while drinking, I would just stare off into the distance in a drunken haze and hope that I would fall asleep and never wake up.

But, I realized that I was in this position before (over a decade ago). I was actually worse off and had to go into a treatment center to help me quit (whiskey, and lots of it will do that for you). I told myself there WOULD be better times ahead and that I would look back on that period and be free. I went for over a decade without drinking, but in the last year or so I began again. I'm telling myself the same thing that I told myself then, that better times ARE ahead.

Back in 94, when I went to the treatment center, my doctor told me if I didn't stop drinking I would be dead in 6 months. I had hepatitis of the liver, and if i didn't stop it would soon turn into something much, much worse. That sobering advice made me realize that I had a choice; to live or to die. I chose to live.

Like I said, I've been cutting down slowly lately, as to reduce the withdrawal, and it has been tough but has worked. I will continue on this path.

I feel better, am not throwing up anymore (sorry to be so graphic), and slowly but surely my outlook on life is improving.

I'm sweating quite a bit because of my slow reduction of alcohol, but I'll take the sweats any day over trembling and feeling like hell.

Hang in there T. Happier times are ahead. Heck, I'm about to lose my home because of lengthy unemployment, but I'd rather be a sober man living in a tent at a KOA campground than a drunk living in a nice house any day...

I can't wait for that first morning after waking up without a drink. I'll have coffee and a smile upon my face. I'll look back to the pain of the recent year and will NOT return to that pain ever again. I'll remind myself of how miserable I was each and every day. I'll work out, walk in the park, and enjoy the sun upon my face.

I've found the following song to be quite inspirational; it's where I took the quote from in my signature... Perhaps it can inspire you as well. "I will not cry for the blind man I leave behind. I will embrace, the sun upon my face.."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eIa9UEXd98Q[/video]]YouTube - In the House of Stone and Light Music Video - Martin Page