Night one and nothing to drink

[Beaches]

Last night was the last of the downhill spiral I was taking. Tonight I am sober and plan to stay that way. I have never tried to stop drinking ever so this is quite an awakening.
My son has autism and it seems tonight all his little repetitive things are a little more unsettling. Like banging cupboard doors. I think I am usually on my way to numb so it doesn't bother me. My daugther, who is his twin, is quite demanding and the baby is in severe separation anxiety mode.
I actually thought for a second my kids probably like me more when I'm buzzed. More fun than I am starting out to be tonight that's for sure.
I've had the kudzu, gaba and the other ones are on the way as well as the CD's. Just hanging in there and working hard at redirecting myself not to pour a drink while I'm picking up 2 million toys, 15 times over.

[Guest]

Night one and nothing to drink

You are right, you are Not Powerless in this struggle.
Wow, do you have a handful, it sounds like! You should talk to Happycamper. I bet you two share a lot of similar thoughts and issues. I have two VERY busy boys as well. I also share your thought that I'm more fun when I'm buzzed, .... but then think "will I be more fun when I'm suffering from cirrhosis at 50 years old?? Not able to enjoy my grandkids??" Sorry harsh, but true.

I still work thru this every single day. Some days I feel I've got it all figured out, other days, I wake up with that danged hangover that tells me I need to stay here until I do have more control, or "normality" or whatever. At least I am acknowledging the problem. And so are you. Congratulations on that step! Things can only get better from here.
Stay close, OK? Lots of moms here who can lend a sympathetic ear. Good luck on day 1!!

[Beaches]

Night one and nothing to drink

Thanks and I will stay close! I need to be close.

[lushy]

Night one and nothing to drink

I am pulling for you as well. I am on my third day without a drink in YEARS. Feels good but at the same time I am missing it. I think it will get easier. Three kids under the age of 4 is something I could NEVER handle; my one daughter is plenty for me so I understand how much work it must be for you. You can do it!!! Are your trying for moderation or abstaining?? I am hoping to be a "reasonable" drinker on the weekends with little to no drinking on the weekends. YOU CAN DO IT!!! You will thank yourself when you wake up in the morning, just get through the witching hours tonight.......

[Mackeral]

Night one and nothing to drink

Hiya NotPowerless, i do that aswell,I'm a bit more blunt with the kids in the evenings....Not nasty, just not as playful. On the flipside in the morning im up and awake with them, no hangover , no fowl mood....You said this is the first night for a long time not drinking...You wont know yourself in the morning, and the sense of pride takes over and puts you in a good mood for the day.
Well done for tonight.

[happycamper68]

Night one and nothing to drink

Not Powerless,
My daughter who will be 3 in October has autism, she is starting a special school next week and I am on a leave of absence with her right now since we found out. We should talk privately about the autism. I'll ebox you with my private e-mail address but you should come on chat if you have time. You sound like you have your hands really full. I only have the one child but I understand your struggle and have not even gotten through one night without drinking since May, I am doing the topa instead. It's a rough road. Congrats on night number one I am very proud of you. Keep picking up those freakin toys I guess right?

[cv1]

Night one and nothing to drink

Hi Happy and Not Powerless. My sympathies on your trials. I know that life can throw us some tough curves. I'm sure that you know that many people believe that autism is somehow related to mercury levels in the body as well as some other nutritional deficiencies within the body so I wanted to make sure that you had a link to a site with much information on autism and diet, etc.

http://www.autismlink.com/info/biomedical.php

This link is to a site dedicated to beating autism... http://www.generationrescue.org/

You have my prayers and best wishes.

[goingsobermum]

Night one and nothing to drink

Hi Not Powerless,
Well done for getting here and getting through day 1 it's the worst. I too have 3 kids, 8, 3 and 9months. I have just managed a week and have found out that often when it gets too much in the evenings that when I think I need a drink what I really want is a way to relax and get away from it all. Not usually possible. Sitting down with the kids and a bedtime story helps everyone chill out.
Good luck

[AMELIA]

Night one and nothing to drink

Hi Notpowerless,
Good on you for getting through night one! How are you doing now? I've just got to a week and I don't have any kids that I have to deal with and I find it hard enough....so good on you! Have you tried Calms Fort or Natracalm to take that edge off in the evening?
Best wishes Amelia