How is My way out relative....

[Theme2be]

There are studies all over the globe.

I have suffered this outlandish disorder for at time.

Baclofen may bring relief as the TOPA that I spent food money on did.

I Love you all, I am in sorow that I trusted.

I trust neverthe less.

Rest is ideal.

[ILOVEMYSELF]

How is My way out relative....

It is an OUTLANISH disorder.........together, I TRUST that we CAN find a way to heal.......

I couldn't agree more, rest is Ideal

[Changed1]

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Ditto what is said. I heard this on Intervention and have it on my refrigerator. "You got dealt a bad hand, now how many times are you going to play it?" Pretty much sums up things for me.

[Theme2be]

How is My way out relative....

I am quite upset.

We are all left, with such intelligence, albeit, but, not Medical Professionals to make this disorder take a hike?

I will settle down, so bare with me.

But, what is this?
Who and what and where is some manner of direction?

Now it is the Baclofen. Then it was the TOPA, that is why I spent what I could not for relief. It was a disaster.

I hurt for those I love.
I Love.


Maybe I simply don't know how to function in this manner of communication.
But,
But,
How are we qualified to figure this miserable life threatening disability out?
Order our own serious prescription, figure this out by anothers experience.
I don't mean harm, nor do I intend to bring insult to one that is sincere to help another.

Thanks for allowing me to vent, speak and otherwise drink myself into oblivion.

Thank You for responding.

Love to you~

[~iirene~]

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Funeral.

As the tears flowed today and NOT seen relatives in a long time, i smelled booze on some.
One young woman (relative) who fell at a birthday party 2 years ago has been to Rehab, clean now, after her baby was plucked away.
There were a few others who went right 'straight' to the bar after the service.
I went to work, close family have been drinking since Auntie passed.
Hubs, said one cousin on the phone tonite wanted to drive drunk.

Memories.

[DeeBee]

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Vent away ((Theme))

[keeta]

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Theme,
I am sorry you are feeling so sad. Atleast sadness is the emotion I feel coming from your posts...How are we qualified? I suppose medically, most of us are not, other than offering up things we have tried, that have worked, or not worked. Side effects, dosing, etc.

How we ARE qualified, is to help and support eachother, to offer not only sympathy, but empathy, because most of us have experienced what others have to some degree or another, while suffering with this awful disease called alcoholism.
We are all here for you Theme...vent away, and stay close, for as long as you need us to be here and offer our loving support, we will.

I wish there was something more I could do for you, but know, I feel your sadness, and that I am here, to listen, to care, and offer words of support.

Please try to not drink yourself into oblivion, as this will not help anything.
Are you trying to cut back, moderate, go completely AF? Has something specific set you off to feeling this way, or just feeling worn down emotionally?
Is there anything specific I can do to help you through this?

Take good care Theme, PM me any time. I will reply as soon as I can.:l:l

K

[Theme2be]

How is My way out relative....

Your words are valued as you are honest and important.

I will stay clear of the PM for it left me isolated.

Things take me time.

I need your value.

I suffer and in that reality I learn the value of responses like yours.

I get so tired.
I listen and then rest.

Thank you so

[Theme2be]

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I value your responses that have orginated from your beautiful hearts.

I am sorry.
I dont trust enough to unfold the fullest of picures.

I am so tired.

A day is surely a moment away.

Alcohol is not valued, it is not interesting, it is not inviting and yet, it seizes my purpose.

What an enemy to face.

I am sorry to take time that would otherwise be spent on the miracle cures.

[Popeye]

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The way we deal with it is personal and different to each, though there are common threads running through each story of success......and failure.
I am lucky. I have found my silver bullet.
The thoughts and desires that keep us drinking and make us want to stop at the same time have to be dealt with. I was confused which was most important. Drink or me? An easy enough question to answer you would think.
Not so.
He's still there, trying to confuse the issue; poking and prodding at the cracks in my defences, looking for a way in, but I will not surrender my life for the sake of a drink.
It's much too serious a game to lose and learning to play it by your rules, not his, takes time and we have that, but not a limitless supply.

[Theme2be]

How is My way out relative....

Thank You for your considerate post as well as those that took time to value my misery into a place of importance.

It is personal and different in its digestion of our souls freedom.

It takes time and it stops me in my tracts and so, I am immobilzed.

When I am in its misery, as I normally am at a 2.9 BAL, am I still in awareness.
Not according to those that can send those of us that suffer to a Prison that makes no sense for we are already suffering in our own Cells.~

I thank what is of such intelligence to bring relief to those that suffer without with my dying breath.

It will make sense someday that our
innate intelligence was what made sense.
It was then a day so bright, so arranged to bring order to the dissary that has sensed passed.

I cant wait to sleep a day, in my bed without waking knowing what the day before interupted.


Wishing you and yours comfort, calm and a new day~

[Zeppie2]

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Theme I hope you are feeling better today.

Does everybody here have any relevance? YES

I have recently fallen off the wagon for the first time in nearly a year. I went to the doctor today, with chest pains that I have had for three days and also to get some more diazepam so I can kick AL in the arse again.

After the normal lecture which you can find on any website she asked me had I called AA, I said I didn't want to call AA as I had MWO (which I have stupidly neglected for 5 months).

Do I need to ring the Alcohol and Drug Helpline: NO

Everything I need is here on this site; I've done it once so I can do it again, my biggest failing was to think I had beaten AL and to neglect my associates on the MWO site, although I thought about everyone I had met daily.

I posted on the site a week ago when I knew I was in trouble again and everyone was there with arms open wide.

THANK YOU MWO MEMBERS THANK YOU

[Theme2be]

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Dearest Zeppie2,

I know through the understanding I feel from your words.

I was at the ER a week ago sure I was having cardiac arrest. It was terrifing. I "attempted" the evening before as I attempted to barrel through my public shyness to be entertained at the home of two amazing people. I slammed two huge slugs of Vodka, which is more of a devil to me than the enormous amounts of beer/wine I have to ingest to "get there" to only wake the next day with ridiculous reminders of the physical disgust I put my body through.

I am kept alive by a temp agency that has no idea of course how I turn into this animal when the sun goes down. I sit in pre shift meetings sometimes labored with sorrow, yet, I am a smiling presence to them.

I had a personal scare alongside with this ordeal as a good intentioned counselor's words were "call your sponsor and get to a meeting".
I did as you.
I came/come here and rest my head.
I post through its influence to just gasp the next day hoping I made some resembelance of sense.

But, there always is the kindness of the good souls. Amazing enough to have me cry like a baby as I would read the Love.
Feeling deserving of attention in such moments of ugliness with such pure intentioned individuals so beautful is healing.

I cry for you like a child in the dark.
I don't feel self pity. I pray to be relieved of the bondage of "self" nevertheless if this is of my doing. I drive to work crying out in my car at this devil to leave me the hell alone.
I have a close friend here that loves and laughs me through the experiences and would drive me to another planet if need be for help.
I am stilled as I still feel such a lonliness.
It even amazes me that I publicly voice my reality. Those around me purr about what looks good on the outside.

It is odd enough to baffle. I grieve most for the sense of selfishness it renders my thoughts.

I am happiest hearing about you all, reading your hopes and dreams that are possibly unfolding.
But as a loving friend, I am sceptical and ready to pounce on any harm that could come your way.

In Love always~

[ChickenNumber3]

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Hi Theme!

You sound discouraged. You sound like you need to find some beauty in life!
Sometimes even sadness can be a beautiful thing as long as it is tempered with the other emotions also...

A poem for you by an unknown poet......I'm not really sure what it is even called,
but there is beauty in the simple word.....

Adieu, the years are a broken song
and the right grows weak in the strife with wrong
The lillies of love have a crimson stain
and the old days never will come again!
(Anonymous)

Let yourself dwell in every room of your heart and mind for a time my friend, but move on and allow the room time to air and renew!

Chicken

[Zeppie2]

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Theme - I hope you are feeling better today please let us all know how you are