Hello all
I havent been here for god knows how long...at least a month!!! I cant seem to completely forget MWO. Alot of u have been so warming and kind. My name is Bella and i am an alcoholic. I have done nothing major about this situation i have found myself in. (It creeps up on you doesnt it) But Im aware of how alcohol affects me...it makes me feel good, then i feel depressed and if i carry on it makes me want to hide away from the whole world and die. So, on that note, Im doing my yoga, I drink about 3 days a week...Im with an exceptionally understanding husband...who seems to just accept me for who i am. I told him id been sexually abused by my brother..he wasnt shocked...and i am still talking to a pro about that shit...its f******* hard to get the thruth outta me but hey....it happened and its a part of me. So, we deal with it. It could be worse. Ive enrolled on another course in art for set...its SO good getting out and living my creative side....my rug making is out of this world!!!! LOL
Anyway, just wanted to tell u all how i am. Im a very lonely person at heart...dont have my family living near, and it gets me down. It can be very lonely with the on going feeling of gloom and sadness. In the evening alcohol takes that feeling away but in the morning...it hits me like a punch in the face.
Bless u all with YOUR issues too...i hope u find peace. BellsXXXXX
I havent been here for god knows how long...at least a month!!! I cant seem to completely forget MWO. Alot of u have been so warming and kind. My name is Bella and i am an alcoholic. I have done nothing major about this situation i have found myself in. (It creeps up on you doesnt it) But Im aware of how alcohol affects me...it makes me feel good, then i feel depressed and if i carry on it makes me want to hide away from the whole world and die. So, on that note, Im doing my yoga, I drink about 3 days a week...Im with an exceptionally understanding husband...who seems to just accept me for who i am. I told him id been sexually abused by my brother..he wasnt shocked...and i am still talking to a pro about that shit...its f******* hard to get the thruth outta me but hey....it happened and its a part of me. So, we deal with it. It could be worse. Ive enrolled on another course in art for set...its SO good getting out and living my creative side....my rug making is out of this world!!!! LOL
Anyway, just wanted to tell u all how i am. Im a very lonely person at heart...dont have my family living near, and it gets me down. It can be very lonely with the on going feeling of gloom and sadness. In the evening alcohol takes that feeling away but in the morning...it hits me like a punch in the face.
Bless u all with YOUR issues too...i hope u find peace. BellsXXXXX
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