THIS is IT!

[Kimberley]

I am NEVER drinking again. I want to do it properly this time. I don't care who I have to cut out of my life and I don't care how bored or stressed I get - I am sick of being a liar and a failure.

There were a few of us on another thread who were all trying to control/ be af and we all had our struggles. It has been a very difficult time in my life, but I said to myself if I ever had to "work from home" again I would have to just kick myself into gear.

It has happened today and I can not allow this ever to happen again.

Today is day one. I want all of you who want to do this with me for the last time to join in this thread. It is a fresh thread for a fresh start.

[Zeppie2]

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Go Kimberley Go !!!
I have had the same struggles as you and am self employed so you really have to be prepared to kick your own arse.

I'm with you all the way

[Kimberley]

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Thanks guys. I am feeling so crap right now - I barely slept last night and feel dizzy and sick. I can not believe I was so stupid to get drunk again. I read Allen Carr's Easy Way to Control Alcohol book and I didn't believe in it, so I told myself I would never get better and drank 2 bottles of Martell.

How stupid! Just because I don't believe in the book, why would I give up on myself? Everything is so much better without alcohol. I don't want to be a 'normal drinker' like I always thought I did. I want to be rid of this hideous disease and the only way I can do that is not to drink.

It's so simple! All I want is to truly believe in myself this time. That's why I keep failing. After I broke my first attempt at sobriety, it has seemed easy to believe I really can't do it. With your support I can try to believe in myself again. That's the only way I will be able to do this.

[Mackeral]

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Kimberley we are all here to support you. I know how you feel. Keep hold of that desire you have now to kick this habit into touch for good. Stay close to boards and whenever you feel weak get back on here and say so.
Best of luck to you and i really hope this is your time:l

[Kimberley]

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Thanks Mackeral - before I have felt ashamed when I have felt weak and posted as if nothing was wrong just to encourage others.

I am going to be honest now and ask for help if I need it.

And congratulations on your month by the way. Good for you

[betty boop]

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Kimberley, I am on day one today so we can support each other in our success!!!!! Go for it ...........

Love & Hugs, BB xx

[Kimberley]

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Cool Betty, I hope you are feeling better than I am. Is the librium helping? I think I've just avoided withdrawal, but it's a helluva hangover!

[betty boop]

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Kimberley if you look at my detox post i am checking in there with my feelings every couple of hours ........ I am relaxed at the mnute but then I wouldn't normally be craving at this time of day anyway ....... this evening will be the test as I am so used to drinking any time between 5 & 7pm

Good luck with it, Love & Hugs, BB xx

[Kimberley]

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Are you in the UK too Betty? Cool. Glad you're feeling optimistic and relaxed. I am feeling riddled with guilt and shame at the moment for doing this to myself again. Plus in a lot of pain. Just looking forward to bed and feeling a bit better tomorrow!

[Lavande]

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Kimberly,

You have made a good decision!
Stay close, check in as often as possible. We are all here to help you out.
Make a firm commitment, stick to your plan. You will be amazed at how good you feel in just a few quick days

Wishing you the best!
Lav