Army Thread 4th August

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Army Thread 4th August

one2many;683431 wrote: Totally ageee Ktab...I felt myself nodding along and knowing what they were gonna say before they said it...still feel bad over the poor girl who dies, I wonder what happened?

Who knows. She was alchololic, with a serious food eating disorder and was self harming so take your pick. Very sad indeed.

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Army Thread 4th August

Thought my not being able to spell alcoholic correctly in my last post kind of ironic

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one2many;683438 wrote: Really upset me that bit.....but I have to say, I found the relapses intriguing....the planning behind it, they all knew they were gonna do it.

Sure isnt that how our minds work. Well mine has in the past.

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ah sure im sick of myself , I manage a few weeks, then get into a fuck it head spaCE AND DRINK...AGAIN! sICK MYSELF.

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limers;683433 wrote: I found the conditioning of the mind comment very interesting , one has to adopt a zero tolerence with anything that might make you think of drinking.

Yes its Black or White thinking there.

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THATD BE GREAT, i WOULD LOVE TO HAVE GOT THIS SORTED BEFORE i TURN 40.

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Guys I read in an autobiography of an alcoholic once, I dont recall who exactly because I have read loads, but he reckoned that the two most dangerous words in an alcoholics vocabulary are F**K IT.
That rang so true for me personally, the amount of times I tried to cut down or cut it out only to utter those words to myself is innumerable. And further to that I would even have encouraged myself to get into the pissy humour knowing full well where it would lead me. Does this make any sense?

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KTAB;683452 wrote: Guys I read in an autobiography of an alcoholic once, I dont recall who exactly because I have read loads, but he reckoned that the two most dangerous words in an alcoholics vocabulary are F**K IT.
That rang so true for me personally, the amount of times I tried to cut down or cut it out only to utter those words to myself is innumerable. And further to that I would even have encouraged myself to get into the pissy humour knowing full well where it would lead me. Does this make any sense?

Thats exactly the cycle im trapped in! I can now manage a few weeks on the trot but never anymore than 3 and then comes my f**k it shit and like you say, it is so true, I create a shitty attitude just to allow myself a good excuse to drink. Thanks K, its so true.

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one2many;683453 wrote: Check out the link I posted and let me know what you think...

I will look now..God a hol would be nice.

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the relationship retreat sounds interesting.

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rigt, im taking my greasball ass off to bed, see you tomorrow. Enjoyed the chat, thanks everyone.

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limers;683456 wrote: Thats exactly the cycle im trapped in! I can now manage a few weeks on the trot but never anymore than 3 and then comes my f**k it shit and like you say, it is so true, I create a shitty attitude just to allow myself a good excuse to drink. Thanks K, its so true.

For me personally breaking that cycle was the hardest thing. Changing my mindset to finally realising that I had the whole reward thing on its head. Initially we feel like we are missing out on something when we cant go out for a drink, then comes the hey I have had a hard/good/shitty day (delete as applicable) and I deserve a drink. WRONG I deserve not to drink, I deserve not to feed this addiction, I deserve better than that version of a life and that cycle of distruction which is only going to spiral further and further downards towards oblivion.

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KTAB;683462 wrote: For me personally breaking that cycle was the hardest thing. Changing my mindset to finally realising that I had the whole reward thing on its head. Initially we feel like we are missing out on something when we cant go out for a drink, then comes the hey I have had a hard/good/shitty day (delete as applicable) and I deserve a drink. WRONG I deserve not to drink, I deserve not to feed this addiction, I deserve better than that version of a life and that cycle of distruction which is only going to spiral further and further downards towards oblivion.

K, thats totally my downfall , that kind of thinking, Im really going to have to work at it, thats another thing I got from tonight, Ive never really worked at it before at all.

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limers;683464 wrote: K, thats totally my downfall , that kind of thinking, Im really going to have to work at it, thats another thing I got from tonight, Ive never really worked at it before at all.

Yep me too, thats why it has never worked like this for me before. That and having MWO and the people here of course.

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Ok I am going to luv yis and leave yis now. I havent shut up on here all day