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[cyclefan]

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Congratulations to you FT and thank you for sharing your AF journey.

[startingover]

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FT, many many congratulations. It doesnt seem like a year ago since you began logging your progress.
Enjoy your birthday and the many more to follow

[caysea]

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Hi All
Congrats FT it is hard work to get were you are but so worth it. Way to go on getting al out of your life


Stay Healthy and Keep Fighting
AF 5-16-08

[Beaches]

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Great to see you FT, you never stop fighting and that's what matters.

[Frequent Traveler]

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Thank you all, just realizing that I could do this and top it off by doing it is a great feeling. I now look forward to year number 2 and quietly write my goals into my journal. Each day that I awake I look into the mirror and tell myself "you matter" and "you can do this", finding being healthy is just awesome and as mentioned in earlier posts - waking up sober is an awesome feeling.
Thanks again to all of you out there and appreciate your continued support, together we can do this.
FT

[Frequent Traveler]

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Good Morning all,
Well 2010 has gotten off to a slightly bumpy ride, for some reason I have found myself not as focused as I was last year and that is bothering me. I find myself needing a swift kick in the you know where to get back on track, I have not reverted to my previous status but I find resistance lowered, and temptation is creeping up to a level that is becoming quite uncomfortable.
Thanks all
FT

[BurrCO]

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Keep going FT. Yesterday was hard for me. St. Pattys day AND my birthday on top of it. Went to a hockey game. Worst game I've ever been to. Wanted so bad to go out and blow off steam and get smashed but I somehow managed to get it off my mind and am still going myself. I'm not even close to 1 year but I know how hard it is.

[Frequent Traveler]

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Thanks BurrCO, working on getting re focused and solving the issue that was/is at hand. I guess I'm surprised by the lack of other words of support from fellow members - Oh well.

[togoodtobetrue]

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hey frequent i no what you mean i noticed you have been a member for a long time i am on this hight sence i found you guys becouse i tried alot of things and i am hoping the high from this is replacing my drinking.i found aa hard becouse the fact that if you have one beer you will end up injail ande i find they know other programes good luck

[Frequent Traveler]

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Well thanks to a caring member that made me realize that it's not always about me....we have all known that feeling right???
I do value this site and at times I am guilty of reading ONLY and not offering words of encouragement to others as often as I should, for that I apologize.
Well I have looked into my recent issues and I think that I have found what was being the trigger and have taken steps to control that trigger and thus am back on track.
Thank you all out there for everything, I do value your support.
FT

[Frequent Traveler]

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Hi all,

Well here I am on the road again, as great as I felt during last year when I was totally sober I have to say that the last 6 months have been like crap. I fell under the delusion that I had things under control only to find that there is no way that I can do this with out all of you, that I didn't have things under control and the only way is to not drink at all. I will admit that I have not been on a binge as to black out as I was before but even now having a beer or two I wake up in the morning feeling weak and tired and I just don't want that anymore.

So today we start again, no excuses no bull. I must say that I grew distant to you wonderful people earlier this year and it was selfish and self centered on my part. I had one member send me a personal message that I valued but did not heed.

Today is my new birthday and I will focus on getting healthy and remaining sober.

Thank you all for being here.

Frequent Traveler.

[Choochie]

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FT, I'm pretty new here (36 days AF) and just wanted to say hi. I tried to moderate for years before I found this site. It is making the difference for me. Sounds like you already know how great a place it is.

Welcome back!:welcome:

[Wally22]

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Welcome back FT
I am back to the site after a hiatus and it feels good to be back.
It's good to see you and I hope you keep at it.

[Choochie]

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Hi Wally - nice to meet you.

Choochie

[Frequent Traveler]

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So here we are Nov 19th and so far so good.

I have been AF again since Nov 9th and can't explain how wonderful it feels, to wake up each morning with out the weakness that is caused by our weakness. I have been reading and posting on other posts and can't explain the support that is out there and the wonderful people that are there for support.

I have decided that it's time to continue the goal that I established in Jan 2009 and that is to continue getting healthy, I went from 350lbs in 2005 to current 235lbs and that in it self is something that I am very proud of. Now its time to continue the repair to my body and I look forward to using P90X for that purpose, especially since I can take it with me on the road. I have been going to the gym in the hotel during the past 2 weeks just walking on the treadmill and doing stretches and it feels good, it also allows me to not think about having a cold one as I don't sit in the hotel room and allow myself to feel down.

Thank you all for being there and appreciate your support.
FT