Mio Bambino

[Bambino]

Hi All.

Just wanted to tell you that My Bambino has been sold. It was weird, beacuase a girl who goes down to the farm phoned up about 5 o'clock and said that she would definitely have her on loan - I had suggested this to her about 2 months ago...
Then half an hour later, the stable manager phoned and said that a girl, ( who already has a horse on loan at our yard - so I know her very well , wants to buy her.) She is a lovely girl of about 15 and very capable of handling Bambi, and will do EXCELLENTLY in eventing and show jumping, which Bambs JUST LOVES.
I am heart broken, but haven't really cried, because I know this is the best thing for her. I have broken my ankle twice in the past 6 months, and am planning on having a family and because of my drinking , I could not push her to her full potential.. I used to go down every morning at 8-8.30 to muck her out and go on a hack, or lunge her in the sand paddock, so that I didn't have to speak to people.
Then at 4 o'clock armed with polo's and chewing gum I would bring her in, groom her, and have as little conversation as possible, in case people smelt the wine on my breath.
Until about 2 months ago when I decided to sell her, it was too painful to see her lovely face- I have tried to distance myself because I LOVE her bones you know.
I used to have So much fun before all this - as you will see from my photo, but, it all went wrong, the more this 'THING' got hold of me.
Bambi desrves an enthusiastic lovely girl, who she can ride out with all of her friends , who are of the same age on the yard. And She will be Spoiled - Just as I spoiled her - Wardrobe is HUGE - rugs, saddles, boots x 10 million - every colour !!! , horse trailer, bridles, browbands with diamante on ( for shows - white boots with matching white accessories - for shows - leather headcollars )- you name it - I've bought it for my girl... But I have to let her go now.
I can see the yard where whe is kept from my kitchen window, but I am glad that she is being sold and not put out on loan , because she would still be My Baby - ( Mio Bambino ). And I'm glad that I know that she will be safe and well looked after... and I can pop and see her anytime ( although I probably won't - toooooo sad. )
It's been a serious kind of day today - even before this.

Anyway
speak to you all tomorrow, and sorry to put a downer on matters.

Liz
xxxx

[YoungAtHeart]

Mio Bambino

Bambi

Thanks for sharing your story, Bambs, and for the beautiful picture. I am assuming that that is you jumping your beautiful Bambi. You have been quite skilled, I see! This board is for sharing our joys and our pain, and I am glad that you told us what is going on. I know it is painful now, and you are moving on to a new stage in your life. It is appropriate to be sad and grieving. I hope you feel at peace with your decision.

Hugs,
Kathy:l

[southernbelle47]

Mio Bambino

What a beautiful picture, Liz.......I know that the good memories will live on in your heart. You are a special lady to love this wonderful creature and then let her go on to brighten someone else's life.

Blessings
Nancy & Belle:l

[Allie]

Mio Bambino

Thanks for sharing that Bambino,
As said before, we are here for a common struggle, but we share so much more of each other's lives. I agree with Nancy.... it is a very noble thing to be able to let something go that you love so dearly because you know it is what is best for them. Seasons change, but just "knowing"you can go visit her will be a comfort, even if you never do.

Love the picture too..
Allie

[Bambino]

Mio Bambino

Thanks, Kathy , Nanc and Allie for those lovely words. Today is a new day, and feeling more positive about it already.
I just keep thinking - 'what if' I hadn't drunk... would I still have outgrown her mentally? ... Anyway, no point dwelling on it. And it helps so much that I have you guys here to support me.
I posted several serious posts yesterday, - amybe it was a sign that this was going to happen - because you know that I'm not oten deep and serious.
And last night - Did I want to guzzle a bottle of wine, or what !!! Luckily my husband was here and I wouldn't have been in his good books for doing that . He is 100% behind me - which is nice - he's like my concience !!!!

Happy thoughts today - looking forward to the future now.

Day 8 ( so glad I didn't drink that wine. ) !!

Thanks again for your kind words :l
and love to you all on this wednesday morning.
xxxxxx
P.s does anyone want about 15 pairs of size 28 jodhpurs, in a myriad of diffent colours, and several pairs of riding boots ???? !!!
Need to get e- baying I reckon - also got to sell the horse box

[mojomuppet]

Mio Bambino

congrats on hanging in there at a time that was very hard for you!
thought on the riding gear, how about donating them to someone who gives free lessons to the handicapped?just a thought. i have those every once in a while lol

[vinophile]

Mio Bambino

Bambino,
From a fellow horse lover and equestrian what a beautiful thing you have done for your horse. I have loved your avatar but did not realize that that was actually you and your beautiful horse. You both look dashing!!!
Sometimes we have to do things that are difficult for us for the benefit of an animal. This is especially hard with horses as the bond between rider and horse is so special.
A few years ago I gave up riding as I had spinal surgery and was told not to ride.Since then I have not visited to many stables or gone to any shows. It still kind of hurts.
My heart is with you. You are doing a wonderful and selfless thing.
Great job with the abs too.!!!!
Janet

[Ivygoodluck]

Mio Bambino

good mom

Hi all,

I used to ride too, though I never had my own horse. Bamb, I can imagine how hard this was for you. Your baby!!!! But like all good moms, you want what's best for your baby.

Good going on the abs too. All the best,

Ivy

[Bambino]

Mio Bambino

Mojo

Following your suggestion re donating my jods, I was looking on the internet and I have put myself forward as a volunteer as a 'walker' at a local riding school for the disabled.
They need 2 walkers per rider, and each lesson lasts about half an hour. I trained to be a primary school teacher several years ago, although didn't actually carry this on (- I went back to finance.) But whilst training, I worked a lot with special needs pupils, so have quite a lot of experience in that as well as the horsey aspect.
I'm really excited about it, because, it means that I can still be around horses and ponies, and make a real difference to somebodies life. It brings such joy and a sense of freedom to a disabled person to be able to experience the freedom of being up there on a pony or horse.
The ridingschool is closed for a couple of weeks for refurbishment, but I think that is good for me, because it means that I can properly get myself back on track booze-wise in the meantime, and it gives me something to look forward to.
I was going to look for a 'proper job' to keep busy, but I'm not ready to have a close, every day, social interaction in an office based environment just yet - I could see myself running out screaming or something !!!!
So thank you for suggesting that Mupps - it has turned into something brilliant - let's hope it comes off xxxxx :h

P.s it took my ages to work out what your avatar was - I thought it was a strange looking monkey - then realised it was a doggies wet nozzer !!!!

[mojomuppet]

Mio Bambino

you made me cry bamb. im glad you liked my idea!

[YoungAtHeart]

Mio Bambino

Great idea, Mojo! Glad you like it Bambs!