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[Jandal]

Oh boy. I'm not the first person to post this and I won't be the last but here I am in the morning still in an alcoholic haze and knowing I have to get my butt down to work shortly (walking), knowing I reek of booze. And I had been so good. I don't even remember the last bit last night when we got the taxi home and my friend stayed over. Yikes. That wasn't in the plan. Actually, I have had other sleep overs that I really have regretted - not this one so much - but hell, where was my head at??? Where was that plan not to have sleep overs under the influence?? Fortunately it wasn't quite waking up with WTF have i done rolling around my head but I am not feeling too clever and wish i could call a sick day.

Moderation is no longer an option cos I don't know how. Thank god I still haven't bought any booze at the supermarket and I know I just had a slip up here and I won't beat myself black and blue and fall back into really bad habits over it, but I am an effing idiot.

I just needed to get this off my chest.

[universal]

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Hi Jandal,

I know exactly how you are feeling. I have had so many of those "WTF" moments upon waking up. I actually have posted on another thread how I have done so many dangerous and stupid things while drinking - it's hard to let go of the past sometimes. But we have to if we want to move on.

You said that you haven't bought any booze - that's good! Maybe while you are trying to go AF going out with friends is something you may have to put on hold for a while until you are able to go out and order only AF drinks? It's hard, that's for sure.

I don't know the answers - but I'm here for support and encouragement.

Hope your haze goes away soon and you have a better day.

Love and hugs,
Uni

[Elpis]

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As for me, AL never caused me to do something I didn't want to do, it merely facilitated my doing what I knew I should not do. AL is demonic in that respect.

[adi]

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It doesn't matter if the booze is from the supermarket, pub, club, or uncle Roger's hip flask, you still drank it.

Not that I'm any judge.

Better luck next time.

[Angelcakes]

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Hey Jandal, It really sux when you let yourself down like that huh? We've all been there. A very wise member here always say that it's a good thing to remember this feeling, maybe write down (be honest - it's hard)how you feel and what you regret. Meditate on it and use it to try and make sure it doesn't happen again.
Also, drink huge amounts of water, some fruit, maybe some milk thistle to help you're liver out.
Good luck with work.

xo

[byebyebridgetjones]

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Nemind little buddy.
You're alive and (will be) well.
Take another run at it.
Bridget.
PS...Do you fancy your 'sleep over' friend ? :H:H:H

[Jandal]

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Hey thanks you guys - I really appreciate your comments and support. It does come down to choices - i had lots of choices and I let myself down by making the wrong ones all night. I just think I'm never going to learn and I don't understand why I struggle so much with self-discipline.

Thanks for the advice Angelcakes - I'll go do just that. And Bridget - I like the guy but only as a friend so i feel like a right piece of crap.

[boozehag]

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Hey Jandal
Another good thing is to analyse exactly what went wrong when compared with your plan etc so that at the very least you can say to yourself that that particular situation will not happen again. Know yourself and know your triggers and then you can work on avoided or preventing them like the plague that they are!
M

[brightlite]

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Triggers....chalk one up to loneliness. It makes you do stupid things. Remember how you are feeling right now and next time you are feeling lonely, do not go out and drink. I wish I could tell you what to do instead, but I'm working on that one myself.