Hello fellow MWO members,
It has been a long summer for me and I have been working on moderation with a couple of benders along the way. It became clear to me one night, with drink and smoke in hand, that I needed to CARE. The word CARE came to me so clearly that I stopped dead in my tracks and put my smoke out and poured my drink down the drain. From that moment I have begun to change. A change that is more radical than any attempt I made before. I really believe that preparing to take on the NIC quit too really made it more "real." I have done a lot of research and made my plan of action. I also got a dog recently and I am not sure how but that is helping this new identity process.
So last night I smoked my last and final smoke. I know this is not the forum for smokers and I am planning on joining one, if necessary. The most fabulous advice, that applies to AL and NIC, I have gotten was that I am changing my personality, creating a new identity. This is a wonderful concept and feels better then the possible life crisis I could have achieved if I kept going down that dark AL/NIC path any longer. I am looking forward to developing this new me!!!
A side story: I was having some friends over for dinner the other night and I decided to pick up some wine. As I was at the check out the sales lady said to me, "Have you been on vacation because I haven't seen you in here lately?" I looked up at her and give a HUGE GRIN!!!! She had no idea why I was smiling ear to ear but she responded with a big smile too. "Yes, I've been away," was my response. I walked out of the liquor store feeling like I was walking on air. It was a tremendous compliment, in such a weird way.
I just wanted to share some positiveness from my way and am looking forward to reconnecting with members as my journey continues. Love and peace to all!!
Take care,
xo
flyin'
It has been a long summer for me and I have been working on moderation with a couple of benders along the way. It became clear to me one night, with drink and smoke in hand, that I needed to CARE. The word CARE came to me so clearly that I stopped dead in my tracks and put my smoke out and poured my drink down the drain. From that moment I have begun to change. A change that is more radical than any attempt I made before. I really believe that preparing to take on the NIC quit too really made it more "real." I have done a lot of research and made my plan of action. I also got a dog recently and I am not sure how but that is helping this new identity process.
So last night I smoked my last and final smoke. I know this is not the forum for smokers and I am planning on joining one, if necessary. The most fabulous advice, that applies to AL and NIC, I have gotten was that I am changing my personality, creating a new identity. This is a wonderful concept and feels better then the possible life crisis I could have achieved if I kept going down that dark AL/NIC path any longer. I am looking forward to developing this new me!!!
A side story: I was having some friends over for dinner the other night and I decided to pick up some wine. As I was at the check out the sales lady said to me, "Have you been on vacation because I haven't seen you in here lately?" I looked up at her and give a HUGE GRIN!!!! She had no idea why I was smiling ear to ear but she responded with a big smile too. "Yes, I've been away," was my response. I walked out of the liquor store feeling like I was walking on air. It was a tremendous compliment, in such a weird way.
I just wanted to share some positiveness from my way and am looking forward to reconnecting with members as my journey continues. Love and peace to all!!
Take care,
xo
flyin'
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