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    #1

    Im A total LOSER.

    Drank some stupid box wine the other nite, went on-line to my checking,
    changed the damn ID and password, now i don't remember it??
    Wanted so badly to be someone again, earning trust at work, my hours
    are extended because i am so good.
    making some changes for the good, only to mess up with drink again?
    an alcoholic can gain a few inches only to think they acheived something.
    just to fall back to old patterns.

    Damitol, they know now at work when i have had poison.
    They love me, i hope I don't ruin a good thing right now.

    I hope i snap out of this tipping crap.

    :thanks:
    An Improved Ripple. :monalisa:
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    #2
    Im A total LOSER.

    Your no loser. You just need to kick AL in the kisser.
    I quit drinking on March 8, 2020. Taking it One Day At A Time and no more taking my quit for granted.

    Also doing it for me. I got to stay sober for me.

    Just consecrate on today and do what you can to remain sober for today and worry about staying sober tomorrow, tomorrow.

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      #3
      Im A total LOSER.

      DriftyAlison0;704080 wrote: Your no loser. You just need to kick AL in the kisser.
      ever since my meltdown, nothing has been the same.
      clearly i am aware, in order to kick it again, "get it" OUT
      of the way, seriously, i need to take a pill of some form.

      need a shake down, i'm easy, i just need to be told.

      i am a loser because i fecked up my ID's and Pass-Word.

      so, drinking is again affecting me.

      :thanks: for reading.
      An Improved Ripple. :monalisa:

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        #4
        Im A total LOSER.

        Hello Irene
        I just wanted to give you a :l an tell that I have felt the same way as you do now. I have done the stupidest, most damaging things while intoxicated. This too shall pass. Chin up. We are here for you.
        "Decide-Which Voice in Your Head you Can Keep Alive" (Shinedown)

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          #5
          Im A total LOSER.

          your no loser irene,we all have done the most stupidest things when were drunk,you are here trying to help yourself & others,you fell but you are not out.odaat.


          :congratulatory: Clean & Sober since 13/01/2009 :congratulatory:

          Until one is committed there is always hesitant thoughts.
          I know enough to know that I don't know enough.

          This signature has been typed in front of a live studio audience.

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            #6
            Im A total LOSER.

            I keep feeling like such a loser, too. It sounds like we have all been there.

            I wish the worst thing I did was mess up a password and user id. That can be fixed without much embarrassment. Every time I drink I send stupid e-mails saying weird things and destroy relationships. I wish I could have fixed that with a password change. (Maybe I should have said a crazy person broke into my house, found my password, and send random e-mails? Hmmm. . . )Although on Day 10, I find I can say stupid things even AF. I just think a little more about it first.

            Hang in there, iirene. You have made positive changes, and a little misstep doesn't erase that.

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              #7
              Im A total LOSER.

              Right now I feel like a huge loser, too. But we all just have to keep trying. I know those feelings of anxiety when you do something drunk that you would never normally do if not under the influence. I have talked on the phone to family members when drinking and the next day I feel like such an a**. Drunk and dial is a horrible hobby that goes along with drinking. We have all done things that are not us. Try not to be to hard on yourself.
              Redhibiscus
              ______________________________

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                #8
                Im A total LOSER.

                One time months ago when I was drunk I was in Stickcam on video. I spilled my drink a little, and being too lazy to grab a cloth I took off my shirt and cleaned it. When I was putting it back on I realized that I was on cam.

                It was so embarrassing.
                I quit drinking on March 8, 2020. Taking it One Day At A Time and no more taking my quit for granted.

                Also doing it for me. I got to stay sober for me.

                Just consecrate on today and do what you can to remain sober for today and worry about staying sober tomorrow, tomorrow.

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                  #9
                  Im A total LOSER.

                  Me too...I have been there. I made some seious calls drunk a couple of months ago and even though to me they were justified (and still are) I did not realize it would get me in trouble with the law in a really big way. I feel your pain.
                  Give a man a beer, he'll waste an hour. Teach a man to brew, he'll waste a lifetime.

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                    #10
                    Im A total LOSER.

                    Don't beat yourself up, brush yourself down and start all over again----and again if nescessary.
                    You can do this, like I have. !!
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                      #11
                      Im A total LOSER.

                      Shame, Guilt, Anxiety,Hopelessness,Emmbarrassment,Foolishness,di sgusted,Scared and yes feeling like a big fat loser...what a wonderful by product of a night on the drink!!
                      Been there 5 Billion times and I/we deserve to respect and feel good about ourselves!!
                      When? Now!!
                      I am off to do just that, no more Mr/Mrs nice guy/gal..... ''alcohol you are dumped!!''
                      No more calling me whining in the middle of the night and def no more farting in bed!
                      I am Perfectly Imperfect!

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                        #12
                        Im A total LOSER.

                        damit iirene...
                        I did such a great reply to you...I'm not too good at navigating this site as yet but i will bee.. this is the best place i've found. You're not a loser...never...just being here proves that. I buy the boxes too...very economical....It's another reason I hate myself.

                        I just buy the cheap poison STAY stong my friend.... and stay here and read on ....I can't stop

                        IT" S THE RIGHT PLACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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                          #13
                          Im A total LOSER.

                          Hey Irene, from one puggie lover to another :h

                          We have all been there, and sit down and realistically look at the facts: you just changed the id and password. Big deal! Easy fixed.
                          You are being too hard on yourself.

                          Please try buying Hypnotherapy CD's that I bought through MWO.
                          These's CD's absolutely work and really cleanse out everything mentally. When I'm having a down moment, I just listen for 30 mins and I feel so much better.

                          Hug-a-Pug and hope you feel better,
                          Love Jafa
                          MWO is a blessing, thank you.

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                            #14
                            Im A total LOSER.

                            Hi Irene. I know how you feel, alcohol takes no prisoners. Take a day off, get away from your situation and get the poison out of your system. Good luck!

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                              #15
                              Im A total LOSER.

                              I'll guarantee you that if 99 things go right for me in the day and 1 thing goes wrong I'll make it my mission to wallow in that 1 thing!!!. I'll continue to tell myself I've had such a bad day and forget all about the positive things that I've done. It's so easy to do this but with a bit of practice it does become easier. We have to change our negative perceptions that we have about ourselves or our core beliefs. A lot of them are wrong and we may even see some positive ones as negative ones (as I did being sensitive). If you can change the way you think about yourself it will eventually change the way you feel. And don't we all wanna feel good about ourselves? If you've always been told your a loser then you'll believe that eventually about yourself. Where did you get that impression that you were a loser Irene? No one here thinks that I'm sure.

                              Be positive
                              Love and Light
                              Phil
                              xx
                              "Keep me away from the wisdom which does not cry, the philosophy which does not laugh and the greatness which does not bow before children." Kahlil Gibran
                              Clean and sober 25th January 2009

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