Remembering 09/11

[I Like Brandy]

Remembering 09/11

Thanks Beeca;

There are 12 families in my immediate area that lost someone in the World Trade Center, the township holds a candle vigil every year. Tonight I will attend and "Lay a flower for you".

Hugs,
Brandy

[Saint Jude]

Remembering 09/11

I remember watching the news all day that day... just not being able to believe it was real...

Scott went out & turned on the TV, & yelled for me to come ....It was a beautiful clear blue day, here... with the sun shining out over the ocean...Sure felt cold to the bone though.

I cry every time I hear that Alan Jackson song , "Where were you when the world stopped turning":h

[MKR]

Remembering 09/11

I was at a breakfast meeting and had no idea, both towers had collapsed by the time I got out of it. It was a beautiful blue sky day in NM also.

I went home because I couldn't work when I heard it on the radio. I was actually the one that my mom in law and father in law could get a hold of - not each other, right there in NY. I relayed messages to her that he was getting on a train and was OK. He was in court just two blocks from the building. He saw jumpers. He is quite a vocal guy but to this day does not speak of that day. My sister in law left NY early that same morning for LA biz trip. She visited us on the way back in a car. We were all in shock for weeks.

Brandy, that must have been an absolute nightmare for you.
My whole NY family lost someone special they knew well that day.
Judie, that song is very powerful.
Mike, your song from church is beautiful.

I lower my head for a moment of silence and prayer in the hope that hatred will end in this crazy world,
Mary

[GratefulEm]

Remembering 09/11

Totally lost it tonight

I've been doing great with the topa and everything and so pleased with myself and the program but tonight I lost it and drank more wine than I meant to. Too many sorrows and angers to deal with and I didn't know how to do it or deal with it.. I distinctly remember being out riding on my horse the afternoon of 9/11 near our local military base (actually we were the one that scrambled to intercept the planes to N.Y. and D.C.). Otis Air Fighters on Cape Cod. There was an eerie silence as no planes were allowed in the skies as I was out riding. It was like nothing I've ever experienced.
My son is now in Iraq in a country that we should never have invaded. We have a government in power that is worse than incompetent. I just feel so much sorrow and regret for this country that I love so much. What happened to our beloved Republic that stood for everything that was right? I 've devoted my life to being an historian and I can't believe that this is where we're at.
Sept 11 truly did change us but we have not yet woken up to the realities because we don't have leaders who can take us there. George Bush will go down as the WORST president of all the American presidents.
You can't wage war against terrorists. They are not a nation. They are not fascists. They are idiots! Oil will be the demise of us all. Jimmy Carter tried to do something about it back in the 70's and noone was having it. WE ARE SO IGNORANT! And it drives me to drink. I think I need to move to Canada.
Em

[Newyear]

Remembering 09/11

I couldn't watch anything today- I knew it would make me sad. Now I'm watching Dateline - talking about flight 93 and showing pictures of the people who died and I can't stop crying.
Still too hard to take.
I was getting ready for a meeting that morning of 9-11. We never had the meeting and I ended up watching the tv with a buch of strangers in the lobby of my hotel for the rest of the day.
Then I watched for about three weeks and cried so much I figured nothing would ever be normal again.
Wow - I'm just surprised how strong the feelings are still.
Thinking of all of you who lost someone that day - or know of someone else who lost a loved one.

lisa

[Quiescent]

Remembering 09/11

Awww Em,

You're breaking my heart girl. I'm so sorry to hear about your sorrows and anger.

I slipped recently too but today was a new day and it is all okay:l

It is a very sad time in our world today and I pray that your son is safe tonight:h

Great big:l :l

[Guest]

Remembering 09/11

Don't move to Canada Em! They don't have it right either! Don't get me wrong... I love it there so much! The people are WAY nicer, and the country is beautiful! But I had my first born there and it was like giving birth in a third world contry. This was only 8 yrs ago. July and no air conditioning. After a c-section. And the doc asked for cash on the spot for the circumcision. nice. Still no high speed internet at my parents' place in Canada, which is a stone's throw from the Michigan border...
crap, I suppose no one can get it right really. Canadians hate their leaders too. So passive. Opposite of here... ..........
I'm not starting a political debate, TRUST ME. ugh. just saying "will it ever be right???"

despairing today. crying. drinking. yuk.

[sujul]

Remembering 09/11

Yes, today was definitely a very weird, numb sort of day...

9/11 was my first day in seminary and I was traveling on the subway from Brooklyn to upper Manhattan. I was in the subway underneath the towers at about 9AM--just after the first plane hit, and right before the second. Of course we had no idea what was going on and we were just pissed off that the train had stopped for apparently no reason.... Then the conductor announced that there was a fire in the World Trade Center and we all basically said, "So, what!!? Put the effing fire out and let's go!" We had no idea at all what was going on over our heads.....

Classes were cancelled as we all crowded around TV sets, tried to call people we loved and wondered how or if we'd ever get home...there was no way off Manhattan for hours--suddenly you realized you were on an island!

I remember when they finally let us get on trains to get back home that evening and all the trains were totally packed...I was sitting next to two women whose husbands were fire-fighters and they hadn't heard from them...I often wonder if they lost them that day...

When we got back to our Brooklyn brownstone the back garden was filled with dust and actual bits of paper and stuff because the wind had blown it all in our direction... The air smelled terrible for weeks...

Yes, I cried a lot of tears then and now....I'm so sad about what happened on 9/11--and what we lost that day. But since then this country has lost much, much more....terrorists did a lot of damage, but our own government has broken our hearts.

And speaking of huge tragedies--what about the victims of Katrina?? In all honesty, that was a much, much worse tragedy in terms of long-term effect and numbers of people who are still suffering because of it. But we didn't do much commemorating of what happened to all of them when we hit THAT anniversary a couple of weeks ago...Oh right. They don't count. Too poor, too black, too whatever...and who do you go bomb after a hurricane?? Not much political expediency from a totally mismanaged natural disaster is there...you can't puff up your chest, strut about and say you're gonna get 'em "dead or alive." (Not!)

Sorry, thought I was just gonna say a few words, share a bit of my own experience--and suddenly I found myself ranting! Just the way I always do when I think about this administration and what's been going on for the past five years. Yep, Em, we're on the same page--the whole thing makes me sick too.

An enormous glass of wine would be good too. Unfortunately, I know from bitter experience that it won't help. I'd just be angry and drunk as opposed to angry and sober. Sober's better. The world will still be a mess tomorrow--but at least I won't be hungover!

susan

[YoungAtHeart]

Remembering 09/11

You Are All Beautiful!

When I read this thread, I feel, yet again, like I have come home. Everyone expresses such beautiful sentiments about all the losses suffered by so many on that fateful day. Like many, I was at work, and luckily, I was working a short day. The end of the day coincided with the end of my daughter's school day. I still had a "real job" at the time, and many of my clients had cancelled, going off to pick up their own children at school. I raced home myself, and I was so happy to meet my daughter and see her and hug her, knowing that there were many people who would not see their loved ones again.

As I said before, I am so fortunate that I have not personally lost anyone in 9/11, although I don't know that my brother-in-law will ever be the same, after working at the site for months. He hasn't spoken much of the events of that day either, and he attended funerals as they recovered bodies of first responders from the site for months afterwards. When I hear of all the illnesses that the first responders are suffering now, and the denial that it could be from the WTC, I feel anger. I mean com'on!!

To change the subject, but it is related--tomorrow we have primary elections. I can't wait. A change to make some changes in our local and state government, and in congress this November. Yahoooo! We have some local politicians that have got their noses up the behinds of the developers, out of here, you jerks!! As for our current gov--so long schmuck!!

Boy, after 9/ll, do I understand the urge to move to Canada! I know it's not perfect there, but at least in Canada, they don't seem to need to be the "Cowboy Sharpshooters" of the world, and I don't see anyone trying to blow them up, either. The US has managed to earn the comtempt of much of the world, yet many of us just wish to live our lives in peace and disagree with our leaders.

Kinda sucks.......

Anyway, I'm going to bed. Don't even get me started on Ann Coulter's book, and what she said about the widows of 9/11......:durn:

Kathy

[lushy]

Remembering 09/11

I have been obsessed with 09/11 coverage and while this was going to be an AF day it has not been for me. Not bad, but not AF. I just got so sick to my stomach, and so anxious, and so angry, and so sad, and so many other emotions that I thought it would be better to "chill". Our President is a complete and utter disgrace, and has been from day one. I am glad that from what I have seen on this board we seem to be in agreement. I do not want to start a big political debate here, so if you think the President and our Government is doing a great job please do not respond. I am not trying to incite things. I am simply "cyber-journaling" my thoughts.

[Whitestar]

Remembering 09/11

Power too the Peaceful

Hi All

Watched live on TV over here in UK, terrible and shocking ,a day I will never forget :upset:

Whitestar

[GratefulEm]

Remembering 09/11

Tears

You guys gave me a fresh day to look forward to and I danced off to bed with only a half glass of wine in my belly. Thanks. I won't go moving to Canada! You're just so darned understanding. I was afraid to come back to this thread because I thought - now I've gone and done it! - really overstepped the bounds - noone wants to hear political talk. But let's face it - it's a good part of what's causing so much frustration and anger and especially on the anniversary of 9/11. We as Americans deserve so, so much more. It's all well and good to be angry at George Bush but we also have ourselves to be mad at. This is OUR democracy, it's OUR country and we have to do something about the deplorable state we're in. We do still have some power left and as someone so rightly pointed out, there is an election coming up.
I sorta crept back onto this thread but was pleasantly surprised. You gals are awesome! Not just 'cos you agree with me but because you care about me and support my emotional journey. Em