I've never felt this way

[akgirl]

Well, its been almost a year since I joined MWO. And I have had some success and some failure. Did pretty well for a while but lately......failure. I have never felt so lost. I'm having a hard time just living my life. I do just the bare minimum to get by. I used to be so motivated and organized. Now all I feel is anxiety and sadness. Sad for my son who I know, but hate to admit, is affected by me and my mood and actions. I just wish I could snap out of it. I feel like I'm back in a hole and its deeper.

:upset: Sorry, just needed to vent.

I'm never giving up and Sep 1 is me starting over.

[JackieClaire]

I've never felt this way

Hi Akgirl,

Vent away. I do know what you mean. PM if you need to or even if you just want to.

I've been there, but I'm not very good at sharing my feelings.

Big hugs

love Jackie xxx

[GunRunner]

I've never felt this way

akgirl

Be strong and stick it out. Don't let the guilt and shame get to you. Every member of this site has been where you are now. I can't count the number of times I've fallen off the wagon and kicked myself and hated myself for days. It will pass and you will be up and running in no time.

[akgirl]

I've never felt this way

Its so strange, I just can't focus. I feel like I'm on the verge of crying all the time. I felt this way about a month ago and thought it was anxiety over my son leaving. I got better when he came home but here I am again feeling so spacey and overwhelmed. And to add to it, we have a very important meeting to go to today. I need to pull it together for that.

What is wrong with me :upset:

[GunRunner]

I've never felt this way

akgirl:
I was diagnosed clinically depressed with panic disorder a few years ago. Therapy, Zoloft, and Ativan got me straight again. I still have the occasional spell but it's gotten a lot better. Sounds to me like that could be your problem. Depression is a horrible, painful affliction that can hit you like a hammer and stop you in your tracks. I used to feel spacey a lot too. My shrink told me thats called Dysmorphia. It starts when the neurotransmitters in your brain start misfiring from the effects of the depression. It's almost like a two or three beer buzz that lasts for hours and hours, or all day. Have you ever felt tingling in your fingers or toes? That's another sign.

Have you ever talked to a professional about it. I remember once I told the doctor and found out how common it is I felt a lot better. I used to think I was losing my mind. I was sure I was going to fall over dead any second. Then getting all those feelings out on the table with a doctor just helped immensely. Millions of people suffer with it every day.

Hope you feel better. I've been where you are now. Beleive me you are not losing it. The best thing is to talk talk talk about it. Get all that stuff off your mind. We are here for you.

[akgirl]

I've never felt this way

:upset: Feeling so lost. I just can't function. I have to do something. I feel like I'm losing my mind.