I really need all the alcohol to go away. My husband likes a beer or two after activities like mowing the lawn or working in the garage. We have a mini-fridge in the garage stocked with beer. when his friends come over, they'll crack one open while they hang out. The problem is, it's just too tempting for me. I thought getting it out of the house was good enough. Sometimes, it is because I don't see it. But within the last week, I have screwed up twice. I did so well last month cutting back my consumption drastically. I'm on meds that I'm not supposed to drink on. My therapist doesn't want me to drink because it clouds my head and I am learning to deal with my problems appropriately.
I want to tell my husband that all the alcohol needs to go. But, I feel badly because he doesn't have the problem I have. I feel like he should be able to have a beer or two and stop. I on the other hand, can't stop after one or two. It's usually 3 or more, unless I start feeling guilty about drinking and stop after 1. I've rarely bought my own alcohol all summer. I drink what is around, just because it is there. If I am out socializing, I can "nurse" one drink to "fit in" but when I am home, I drink in excess. I had 23 non-drinking days last month. I was hoping to beat that this month. I start work next week (teacher) and have 2 young children, and I hope the stress doesn't put me over the edge and want to drink. I have all the supplements, but I've stopped taking topamax under the discretion of my doctor. So many things make me think about drinking alcohol. (Even being on this site since it's our big topic of discussion!) I really think if I got it out of our house and garage I would be sooooo much better off. If I am at the store and think of buying it, I think about all the other things I could use the money for, and my urge goes away. Is it fair of me to ask my husband to get rid of it all?
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