I found MYO last April and it was such a great place that I was able to go AF for 60+ days.
My head was clear for a change and I was so grateful. I was taking Kudzu and did not feel deprived for the most part.
My darling wife is from across the pond and went back for a 10 week visit with family and friends on June 29. About three or four days later, I was so lonely and feeling sad that the self pity set in. I naturally reasoned that a beer would be o.k.. But a beer was not enough, just like before the AF days. I was right back into the rut instantly. Doing the regular things on a daily basis until 5 or so in the afternoon. Time for beer and forgetting about sobriety. That has been going on for 10 weeks now. My wife is coming back today and doesn't know I have been drinking since it was not a topic of conversation over the phone. I want the craziness to end for myself and also for my spouse.
I have a new supply of Kudzu and I am back here to get my life back. I will be back here often as I fight with sly ol' AL.
My head was clear for a change and I was so grateful. I was taking Kudzu and did not feel deprived for the most part.
My darling wife is from across the pond and went back for a 10 week visit with family and friends on June 29. About three or four days later, I was so lonely and feeling sad that the self pity set in. I naturally reasoned that a beer would be o.k.. But a beer was not enough, just like before the AF days. I was right back into the rut instantly. Doing the regular things on a daily basis until 5 or so in the afternoon. Time for beer and forgetting about sobriety. That has been going on for 10 weeks now. My wife is coming back today and doesn't know I have been drinking since it was not a topic of conversation over the phone. I want the craziness to end for myself and also for my spouse.
I have a new supply of Kudzu and I am back here to get my life back. I will be back here often as I fight with sly ol' AL.
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