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    Still hoping for The Way Out~

    Dear Precious and pure individuals that I adore~

    I appreciate each word I read because you are a soul that gives the time of day to those that suffer.

    I am here because of you.

    I am working on the baclofen as neeed and not the other.

    I almost left this plane recently. I procured a most honorable place as that was to watch a beautiful home and the two dogs, named Cole and Maggie.
    In time, I found a bottle of "Scotch". I don't know why I ingested enough to seize my organs.
    I had to go into a medical facility for my systems were failing.
    But, the beauty is that those that trusted me trusted me even more so.
    After they got the news that I had to be packed and escorted out, the female of the house called me and asked me what happened.
    All I knew was the truth, so I spoke openly.

    She instantly invited me back to watch the house and those adorable dogs.
    I did so and as the days past, my body was smitten beyond anything I have known.
    I thought and I felt like I was going to die a terrible death.

    I called someone of trust and was wisked away to a facility to help medically.
    It took time, but, the physical symtoms did ease away.

    I want this disorder to ease away.
    Go back to its hell hole.

    Leave us alone.
    There is a place someday.
    Isn't there?

    I feel sometimes
    like it is right in my fingertips touch.

    Maybe Hope is in between our breaths. It is that note that calls you without a reasoning thought.

    My heart is your heart.
    :notes:Theme2be

    " Do not lose courage in considering your own imperfections but instantly set about remedying them~everyday begin the task anew".-Saint Francis de Sales

    #2
    Still hoping for The Way Out~

    Never EVER give up Theme!
    I hope and pray that Bac brings you the peace and dignity you so deserve.
    You can do this, I know you can.
    Love
    Dee
    "The person who says it cannot be done should not interrupt the person doing it"

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      #3
      Still hoping for The Way Out~

      Hi T2B - I missed your poetic posts.
      What a lovely, understanding friend you have...the people that don't judge us because of our failures are to be cherished.

      xo

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        #4
        Still hoping for The Way Out~

        Theme.

        Your posts give me hope....your eloquence, beauty and deep understanding of the human spirit make me feel happy and glad to read such wonderful words.

        As Deebs says....NEVER give up...the answer is out there and I know you will find it.
        It sounds like you have a wonderful friend....take comfort in the fact that you are loved, and we love you too. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
        "It's not your job to like me, it's mine!"

        AF 10th May 2010
        NF 12th May 2010

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          #5
          Still hoping for The Way Out~

          Theme

          Your post has made me cry.

          You don't deserve this- none of us do.

          I am on the baclofen too, today is my first day of fast titration as I have now lost my business and can have a few days where I don't have to jump in the car every five minutes.

          Don't lost hope- we will get there in the end.

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            #6
            Still hoping for The Way Out~

            There is nothing poetic about alcohol and its effects when abused. Your post was heartbreaking and yet filled with hope. I am giving you my support in trying medication and whatever it takes to get and stay sober - it is a matter of life and death. You can do this, keep posting and ask for support. The great people here will help in any way we can.
            Redhibiscus
            ______________________________

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              #7
              Still hoping for The Way Out~

              Theme,
              There is a place someday, for all of us.
              Finding it through the jumble and chaos; the craziness and distortion that can overwhelm the stoutest of hearts is the reason we are here.
              Thank you for your post.

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                #8
                Still hoping for The Way Out~

                Theme,

                My best wishes and strength to you.

                I often ask myself why. Why have I gotten myself into this? Such an insidious slide it was. But I guess the why doesn't matter so much really. The how is the more important now. How to stop the madness, that is. Do what ever it takes, my friend. You deserve goodness.
                Dill

                Dont forget, you can: start late, start over, be unsure, try and fail AND STILL SUCCEED!

                If it is important to you, you will find a way. If not, you will find an excuse.

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                  #9
                  Still hoping for The Way Out~

                  Theme2be, I am very happy you are alright what a scary experience. I agree there is a way out of this hell whole and we will all find it.
                  "Keep your eyes and heart focused on the end goal at all times, and never settle for less."

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                    #10
                    Still hoping for The Way Out~

                    T2B....yes never give up...you have it within you to get out of this. You reminded me of a place I had been 30 years ago when I was very depressed. I wasn't drinking a super amount but I decided it would be pretty cool to drink alot and still be alert. My brilliant idea was to constantly consume NoDoze. I think that I ate a whole box of tabs. I've never felt so terrible for such a long period of time and I wasn't able to figure any way to overcome the horridness.

                    I felt like I might possibly die...I just lay in bed for about 24 hours because I couldn't figure out anything better to do. That horrible decision was one of my stupid ideas while trying to deal well with alcohol. I'm still drinking but today I'm maybe a little smarter. The best thing that happened to me in the past week is that I found this place. I really think that this is going to help me.

                    My son became an Eagle Scout last night...He passed his board of review... I am so proud of him but so ashamed of myself on how he knows me as he was growing up. I gotta stop...

                    NEVER stop trying...

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