AL because of Depression, or the other way around?

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AL because of Depression, or the other way around?

brittzak;727055 wrote: Colbe,
I was depressed and drinking made it 1000's worse. You can't take medication for it if you are drinking. It is kinda like chasing your tail....you go in little circles. You drink to make thedepression go away, but the alcohol makes the depression so much worse. You have to get enough AF days to see clearly. I KNOW easier said than done. Keep trying...

Colbe, this was me too. Exactly...

[colbe]

AL because of Depression, or the other way around?

I think maybe I need to try to make another call today...it's almost 6am, maybe the lines are openn now without getting the runaround. I still feel like shit...not hungover or anything just that worthless feeling. I know about the losing weight because of too much drinking...cool in a way, but I have been doing a good job (well, better) of eating and it does help me not drink.

I wish I could just sleep all day...all week or even year. I am so grouchy all the time I don't even want to be around anyone. I did try that Vivitrol when I was in Detox...it didn't do anything for me, but (I forget who said this) but I think you have to take it more than one month and I certainly don't have that money.

In our argument last night (I knew this was coming) he said well, since you are not working, why don't you do my laundry or put the dishes up...he does not understand that I am so depressed, I am proud just to get up and use the bathroom. As far as the dishes go...his ass of a buddy is staying with us and his girlfriend (OH is that ending soon...they are two immature annoying drama queens), anyway, they are all carnivours and last night destroyed the kitchen by making fried chicken. The smell even out side the house smelled like a friggin Burger King which just repulses me. And you want me to do what? You clean the damn kitchen. I clean up after myself, not the frat house buddies of yours. Sorry for the rampage.

Here is the beginning of a perfectly good day in hell. I suspect I will be around all day...thanks guys.

[rubywillow]

AL because of Depression, or the other way around?

Colbe, I could MAYBE understand your guy wondering why you don't do things during the day to help the two of you, since he obviously doesn't undersstand depression (Hubs didn't either). But take care of two inconsiderate leeches!?!!? I think not. I don't know your living situation, but if you and he are on equal terms living there, then you have the right to lay down some ground rules, including making the kitchen off-limits if you want unless they clean up the mess. Right away! Your situation is complicated, it sounds like, but you are making such an effort to work on AL, and that WILL have an effect on your depression, but like anti-depressants, it takes a few weeks. We're pulling for you, hon.

[Shikakai]

AL because of Depression, or the other way around?

rubywillow;727066 wrote: AL IS a depressant. Not while you're drinking, at first, but all of us know the weeps, the old emotions, the black-out phone calls or text messages, etc. It frees up our tongues to believe we can really communicate our pain, while it is really causing most of it. It took me several years and several different depressants and therapy to get a grip on these facts, for me. And my hangover depression was THE worst, when I was still dealing with all my problems and the chemical imbalances in my body. It's not til we begin to get our system clean, and our mind, that we begin to really see the goal, and the truth. I'm sorry for your situation, and can only imagine what each day is like for you. It is important, however, to realize that there is always hope for a better tomorrow. How can I help you in your struggle?
Rubes

Tell me about it! I sometimes wonder if I would be depressed if I could stop drinking. I think I probably would be since over the last few years, life situations propelled me to drink even more to drown an already existing depression, but the alcohol definitely fueled and fed the depression.

Anyway, day two... I hate this "itching for a drink" feeling. I so do not want to do any drugs for my alcoholism or depression. Just another financial racket that I'm not getting sucked into.

Besides, I tried the kudzu and a couple of other things when I first joined here, and none of them worked. My doctor put me on one of the "big guns" and even it didn't work.