I think the frequency is key for me here. I could never understand how people could drink heavily for 3-4 days then stop for a similar period of time. As far as I saw it why bother stopping at all. So for the last few years or so I was drinking 7 days a week 365 days a year. Some days were better than others when I only drank half a bottle of wine or maybe two pints of beer. Unfortunately more regularly I drank the recommended weekly unit allowance in one sitting.
I knew I was slowly killing myself with this sort of intake but it felt like the drink was more important than my health. In fact some times I didnt even want a drink but drank anyway, kind of like thinking this is my medicine. On the plus side I hardly ever drank spirits and only occasionally before noon, normally when the hangover was so bad I needed some more poison.
It all seems another lifetime away as I write about this crazyness this morning. Please God I never find myself there again.
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