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[hopestar]

wel i wil be goin to pick my daughter up soon and wil have 2 stand with all the other parents knowing that they are goin home to a luvin husband or partner and a normal family havin tea an so on where for me i wil have to take a slow walk 2 tesco with the kids tryin 2 avoid the alcohol ile but also tryin to kill sum time because coming home is when the real battle begins the door shuts an im alone only thinking about alcohol an the craving this is the part of the day i struggle most but then tomorrow mornin i wil feel fantastic an proud knowing i didnt do it! for it to only cum back the nxt evening its a constant battle off will power an guilt the thought of living this way forever is a problem in its self but the soothing relief alcohol gives me is so hard 2 4get and the temptation is always there its about doin what you know is the right thing but putting it in to practice is something else i hate feeling like this and been so alone with nobody really understanding an just thinking im a losers that does nothing to help my self .i told sum1 i hadnt had a drink for 6 days an they wont very supportive saying when iv done 6 months then tell them which was a bit ov a put down cos i was feeling rather proud of myself its times like this i think whats the point !

[sunbird]

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Hi Hopestar,

You are a shining star of courage! Well Done on you 6 days AF--keep going and reach out and let us all help you along the way. You are NOT alone--we are all here, cheering you on! We are proud of you.

[DeeBee]

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Hopestar, what about jumping into chat this evening for support. I did it the first day I went AF and for me it made the world of difference.
Also try and mix up your evening routine a little bit -- bath earlier, cook later, eat earlier. Get yourself a good book, something you can really get your teeth into or what about grabing an early movie with the kids.
Treat yourself kindly tonight:-)

[tiptronic_ct]

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Well done on 6 days, Hope!

Stay close to MWO - you are not alone, and will find great support here.

[My New Beginning]

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You stick around here, hopestar. Every day will get just a little easier. You can do it!
Get on chat, it's very helpful and you get a good chance to talk to others.
Hang in there!

[Guest]

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Hope, now that your kids are in school is there any way you could volunteer somewhere or do a morning computer course or something, sounds like you need to fill a void and alcohol is only creating a huge hole in your soul. Think about it and see what you can come up with and to the person that says 'only 6 days' doesnt have a clue what your going through, we do, stick with us and well done.

[Blue Sky]

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Hi Hopestar

First of all a big well done on those 6 AF days. You have made a good start. Everyone has to start somewhere. Realising that you have a problem and deciding to change and beginning are huge steps. So well done you, don't be disheartened. I think you will find that it gets easier everyday. You will get stronger. Is there something you can do in the evenings to distract yourself? Read a book, come online here and chat or even learn to knit (??) Anything really to keep yourself occupied and out of temptations way. Don't buy the booze, if it's not in the house you can't drink it....sounds simple but it's really hard. Remember the decision to drink is made in Tesco when you buy the bottle, not so much later on when you open it!

If you're lonely could a friend come round and watch a film with you? I usually drink alone and have started having a non-alcoholic film night on Mondays. Normal drinkers don't bat an eyelid at being offered only soft drinks or tea or coffee on a Monday evening!

Also, don't worry about those other mum's on the playground with their 'perfect' lives. Many of them are having a terrible time at home but are putting on a brave public face.

[Angelcakes]

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Hey Hope - whoever said that is just ignorant & doesn't understand the problem. You've done a great thing on getting 6 days! Keep going - it get's a little less stressful each day.
In the meantime you have us here to talk to.

xo