Ten days ago, I decided to do another 30 day AF stint (hopeful it will be more, but let's start there).
My point being is the very FIRST thing I thought of was "Thank God I hadn't been drinking." I didn't even mean that day, I meant in general, because if I was still drinking, no matter if it was the day before or even two, I would have thought it was my fault. My fault because I should be punished for my behavior. I was not hurt, although the speeder complained of injuries and the ambulance came to check him. I was regretful that my car looked like five miles of bad pavement but grateful to know that this was just something that happened that was not in my control.
Breaking it down, Al brings so many negative and detrimental emotions and we blame ourselves for things that were not our fault because of our shame and guilt. Typing this tonight on my 11th day AF I am grateful to be sober.
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