Trying to believe

[scrubbly]

Trying to believe

Like many others I have no perspective, words of wisdom, or grace to offer to you, just my support, appreciation of the person you are and the kindness you have ALWAYS shown to others on this site, and many hugs for what you are going through.

May you be well and find as many peaceful moments as you possibly can. :l

[Guest]

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Sometimes my son will just burst out with a Disney saying ... "Dreams DO come true ...!!!"

And that is so cool. But sad, too, because my days are spent trying to understand what his dreams might be.

In school this week, his class was painting pumpkins. You know, big eyes and teethy smiles.

He painted his .... orange.



You've helped me tremendously, Rusty. I dare say you've helped many.

I don't have answers for you. But I can hold your hand if you want along the way. I wish you only the best. You are wise to pay attention to your inner sense.

M

[Rusty-576]

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Thank you for all of the kind words that have been spoken on this thread.....it is so easy to give support and a offer of friendship here...there are so many souls just trying to make it through the day.
Kate is right I do have walls up to protect myself....if there were a support group here I am sure I would have joined by now...but this is a small community and there is none....and I have been to the online support group groww. It has been helpful but I just have not found my place there yet....
I will not drink today or tomorrow and maybe this is what I have to learn to play it forward. maybe misters son is right "Dreams do come true"......in memory of Lance.......

[lodestar]

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Could there be?

Dearest Rusty,

It was so nice to see you last night in chat and I have been holding thoughts of you close in my heart today. Thank you for sharing your son's name...Lance. I wonder if there could be or has ever been a support group here for those who have lost loved ones? Maybe a special regular chat or thread or something. I'm just thinking out loud, I guess, because I have read others grieving the loss of someone close.

Blessings to you. :l

[betty boop]

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Rusty, I cannot add anything that hasn't already been said by the fabulous people here ........... but here is another hand being held out if you need it :l

You are a very strong lady and I admire your strength .........

Big Big BB hugs xxx

[irish eyes]

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Rusty, I just want to give you a hug eventhough I know it wont help u any right now. You are grieving the most horrendous grief and please do what you need to do to let it out, perhaps a few counselling sessions might help u somewhat. Please post here as often as u need to and feel free to PM me anytime. This lyric I found particularly healing for me, I hope it helps you:l
song

[bouchard01]

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Thinking of you Rusty ... Hang on ....

[catch22]

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Rusty,
Im so sorry for the loss of your son Lance this must be the worst think a parent can go through. My son does skateboarding i know it will always be in his blood, know matter how old he gets.. I think griving goes in diffferent stages,,,it takes time, I think sometimes the feelings of how we feel of a loss one can get trap inside, it hard to let it out. Its good to keep yourself busy but dont over do it spend time talking to someone on how you Really feel inside. You are a strong person, my thoughts and prays are with you.
You say about Dreams come true, hope you dont mind but here is a song about skateboarding it called ...Heaven is A Halfpipe.... I know your son is skateboarding up there And looking down at you and being very proud of his mum . Big :l from me.x

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E1QMFOR5wi8[/video]]YouTube - OPM-Heaven Is A Halfpipe

[hart]

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Rusty, u know I luv you. And usually when things happen I tell myself they happen for a reason, but when one loses someone in matters such as this........I know no words of comfort nor could I accept them.

All I can tell you is you are luved, respected and heck even liked once you get past all your darn being such a good, true person. :l

[beautifulred]

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Rusty

No words are coming to my mind, only tears to my eyes at trying to imagine the pain you are going thru. :lray::l

[Rusty-576]

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Catch22..the very first time I ever heard that song was at my son's funeral.......it will always have a very special meaning to my children and myself......Lances ashes is in the ink on my daughters tatoo...the words are "Heaven is a halfpike".......thank you for the memory....

[drylifeahead]

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Oh Rusty,

I just found this thread now!!
You are such an incredibly strong person, I had no idea in chat today of your pain.
You're in my thoughts and prayers.

:h:h:h:h:h

[tlrgs]

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now i feel like i have been lost .. i just now seen this thread
rusty a reason to smile is knowing i have a friend like you.. big big cyber hugs to you my dear friend

[angeleyes]

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Rusty, I haven't been on this site for awhile, but I think of you often. You've made a difference to me and a lot of other people here. I can't imagine what you have gone through, just wanted to tell you that you are not alone, and I think the world of you.

[Beaches]

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Ahhh Rusty big hugs. You have been through so much and always come out on top. Believe in yourself. I am here anytime if you want to talk.