and now its time to tell what happen when i got to fl ..
well i got here and was looking for help everywhere.. but every turn i took ..took me no where closer to my family .. i try to get help to quit the drugs and which i have now for 10 plus years and before that i went to a place ..where they said they could help me .. and when i went in they said i had to be on drugs to get help from them .. that's what i had to deal with and that's why i am the way i am today ..seems like every time i ask for help i always had to do things on my own .. and well things never really work out for me and my ex and i did try and make all the changes i could ...i quit drinking for alittle while ..but not for long and as time went on things got alittle closer to my kids ..i had visitations with my kids and that went well .. and still i haven't got everything i wanted back .. and whats weird is that everything happens around the holidays and i never looked at it like this before ..its true it like.. when i was drinking.. there was so much anger,disappointment, i wasn't happy in my own skin .. i always wanted more and more .. for me and my family.. but in so many way .. i drove them away .. now look am suppose to be writing about the things i went Thu but here i sit thinking not drinking .. sure i can write even more about the past .. i lived it and went Thu everything and even more that i haven't written yet and what i can say now ..is that i want to live .. seem like the holidays bring the worst out of us .. reliving the past and wondering if we could or should have done it this way or that way .. but you know there is one way.. the way it happen and the way it will be .. the saying goes shit happens for a reason or a season and it does make you stronger at the end .. when you can live Thu it and say yeah life was shit but i made it Thu and where am i now ..it took me 8 years to really see what i was meant to do and that is to live my way .. i cant change for no one but myself .. things that i have seen and gone Thu in the past two years.. are what they would call miracle's .. well no they are the things that can happen when you make the needed changes in your life and ready to do what you really need to do for yourself and will get back as time goes on .. so if you ask yourself this question can you commit to something.. yes you can..give it a try and watch things change in front of your eyes but you have to make the first step in the right direction
well i got here and was looking for help everywhere.. but every turn i took ..took me no where closer to my family .. i try to get help to quit the drugs and which i have now for 10 plus years and before that i went to a place ..where they said they could help me .. and when i went in they said i had to be on drugs to get help from them .. that's what i had to deal with and that's why i am the way i am today ..seems like every time i ask for help i always had to do things on my own .. and well things never really work out for me and my ex and i did try and make all the changes i could ...i quit drinking for alittle while ..but not for long and as time went on things got alittle closer to my kids ..i had visitations with my kids and that went well .. and still i haven't got everything i wanted back .. and whats weird is that everything happens around the holidays and i never looked at it like this before ..its true it like.. when i was drinking.. there was so much anger,disappointment, i wasn't happy in my own skin .. i always wanted more and more .. for me and my family.. but in so many way .. i drove them away .. now look am suppose to be writing about the things i went Thu but here i sit thinking not drinking .. sure i can write even more about the past .. i lived it and went Thu everything and even more that i haven't written yet and what i can say now ..is that i want to live .. seem like the holidays bring the worst out of us .. reliving the past and wondering if we could or should have done it this way or that way .. but you know there is one way.. the way it happen and the way it will be .. the saying goes shit happens for a reason or a season and it does make you stronger at the end .. when you can live Thu it and say yeah life was shit but i made it Thu and where am i now ..it took me 8 years to really see what i was meant to do and that is to live my way .. i cant change for no one but myself .. things that i have seen and gone Thu in the past two years.. are what they would call miracle's .. well no they are the things that can happen when you make the needed changes in your life and ready to do what you really need to do for yourself and will get back as time goes on .. so if you ask yourself this question can you commit to something.. yes you can..give it a try and watch things change in front of your eyes but you have to make the first step in the right direction
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?We are one another's angels? 
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