I told several of you yesterday I'd had a rough day. Hubs is struggling with depression, and I will do whatever it takes to help him. He is 6'2", 205#, a master at his job, the one everyone goes to because, as the 'old man', and because he has a steel-trap mind, problems have a clear beginning and end with him. But rarely are his instructions followed through correctly. Rarely does he find someone who is interested in actually doing their job, not just getting through the day. And after 33 years, he's tired. Plus, we have our rental house business, and today toured the latest wreckage from a couple and their children we had tried many times to help. It's so bad, he says we will hire a cleaning crew, something we never do, since we always work together to get places back in shape to re-rent. These people moved without notifying us, left food in the refrigerator which is now running out on the floor, mounds of trash, holes in walls, ripped off vintage cabinet doors my husband's late uncle built, left feces on the floor. Burns, holes, food on the ceiling, black carpet, 3 months past due rent, and the man cussed me out when I called him. I could go on and on, about her brother we allowed to rent the mobile home next door who had a drunken fight with his wife and went into the yard and committed suicide last year, but I think you get the point. FINALLY, Hubs is caving under the pressure that I've been under, too, for so long. He wants to clean up and repair the places, then sell them, which makes me so happy.
My point is, it takes a while sometimes for us to really understand what is causing the stresses in our lives, and how bad we've allowed it to become. Hubs had to get almost to the breaking point, and now we have more than material damage to repair. My life is anything but normal, maybe because we extend ourselves too much. Irish's post really hit home today, because I always want to save everyone who crosses my path. I feel a responsibility because I HAVE had a blessed life; a loving man, healthy, beautiful, successful children and grandchildren, and the opportunity to do so many things I want to do. I've said before, and I DO believe, those of us with AL problems feel and hurt more deeply than some, and it's hard for us to deal with.
I love this site. I hope I don't drive you all crazy with all my posts, but you have saved me this last year. You have been my sounding board, my lifeline, my conscious, but most of all my friends. I was very much alone all the time before I met you, talking only to Hubs and my dogs every day. You have given me such a voice, and I love you all for it.
Thank you for letting me vent. This has been a rough few days. I'm hurt by the betrayal of this young couple we tried to help. I'm sick about the amount of work to be done. I'm worried about my husband, who is my heart. But I can come here, talk, vent, laugh, celebrate, and lose myself for a bit. You have made all my world so much bigger. Thank you.
Rubes:l
My point is, it takes a while sometimes for us to really understand what is causing the stresses in our lives, and how bad we've allowed it to become. Hubs had to get almost to the breaking point, and now we have more than material damage to repair. My life is anything but normal, maybe because we extend ourselves too much. Irish's post really hit home today, because I always want to save everyone who crosses my path. I feel a responsibility because I HAVE had a blessed life; a loving man, healthy, beautiful, successful children and grandchildren, and the opportunity to do so many things I want to do. I've said before, and I DO believe, those of us with AL problems feel and hurt more deeply than some, and it's hard for us to deal with.
I love this site. I hope I don't drive you all crazy with all my posts, but you have saved me this last year. You have been my sounding board, my lifeline, my conscious, but most of all my friends. I was very much alone all the time before I met you, talking only to Hubs and my dogs every day. You have given me such a voice, and I love you all for it.
Thank you for letting me vent. This has been a rough few days. I'm hurt by the betrayal of this young couple we tried to help. I'm sick about the amount of work to be done. I'm worried about my husband, who is my heart. But I can come here, talk, vent, laugh, celebrate, and lose myself for a bit. You have made all my world so much bigger. Thank you.
Rubes:l
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