December to remember so whos ready get your ass in gear

[tlrgs]

December to remember so whos ready get your ass in gear

well good morning shifters .. Xmas is no more ..now on to a new adventure .. i wish i could say it went as plan.. but i would be lien.. they came , eat and even laugh .. but one they did was pissed me off .. so Xmas dinner was shut down early .. and lucky i didn't throw the food out to the dogs .. i just got up and said go please leave .. and went to my shop .. in so many ways i feel like i fail but i know i didn't do anything wrong .but try to be a father and this showed me i cant please everyone .. but why cant i get over this ..everything in my body says go and leave it all behind and accept that i fail as a father..i cant change them ..but i have change in so many ways maybe it just too much to ask for in life to get a second Chance at trying to be a father..but here i am trying to find work pushing to make a buck wanting to spend time with my sons and sometimes the only way i can spend time is to have them work with .. is that too much to ask for ..and well here i am thinking not drinking sometimes i feel i don't have a drinking problem i have a thinking problem and a dire need of a psychologist ..
but this too shell pass and life will keep moving

[cowgal]

December to remember so whos ready get your ass in gear

sorry T!

I feel as a total failure this xmas........................my entire family deserted me along w/ friends etc................or so I feel, the sensitive, insecure person I am...................hate the way I am...............had THE WORST Xmas ever this year, feel like, and still may go out and drink today..................not good.....................

hope all is well here, feeling hopeless instead of hopeful as I just felt a few days ago..................maybe yesterday!!???? who knows................who cares..................it is all a bad place right now..............sorry as usual to vent, I am not doing well, need someone to really talk to but nobody is available..................my freinds here all still have fam in town, relatives (all inlaws who have now disowned me...............feeling so alone!!??)

sorry, done......................xoxoxo

MA

[tlrgs]

December to remember so whos ready get your ass in gear

sorry cowgal your not alone and even i have not had the best xmas dosent mean im going to go down that road and drink ..so think before you drink girl .. is it really going to make things better i think not and yes i know it would num it for alittle but those feelings are always going to be there ..so get up cowgal and stand on those feet and say its not my lost. its theirs.. so just hang in there gal ..give it your best ..

[cowgal]

December to remember so whos ready get your ass in gear

T u r the best!!

thanks!!!! MA

[cowgal]

December to remember so whos ready get your ass in gear

New day!

I am up w/ the roosters, but feeling great and well rested........................hopeful again............this holiday season was super rough, but THANK GOD it is over, made it, now today will be a good day, all I have to do is enjoy it, right!!?? Thanks :thanks: as usual for listening to me and being there for me guys, will always try to do the same for you!!

love and hugs!!!!!:l:h:l

MA

[tlrgs]

December to remember so whos ready get your ass in gear

well good afternoon im up and well still not feeling very good but this too shell pass .. well cowgal thats great you are feel good and well rested you need it girl .. stay strong and keep thinking positive

[cowgal]

December to remember so whos ready get your ass in gear

Will do!

All this change has me freaked out, and christmas bit.... Time to get my ass back in gear?!? Right?

XO. MA

[cowgal]

December to remember so whos ready get your ass in gear

wakey wakey!!!

Where is everyone?~ Rubes and T, u guys are usually the ones doing the waking up here!!!

love u all.........................have a great day!!!

MA:l

[rubywillow]

December to remember so whos ready get your ass in gear

Sorry for my absence, guys. I've done some travelling, plus all the holiday stuff. A few little hitches in my Christmas dinner, but the joy of everyone over their gifts, chosen with care and love, was so uplifting and genuine, and will carry me over for ages. I have so many projects in the works, so many happy things, I will not let this coming year be anything but a joyous, blessed, growingyear in all our lives. My in-laws actually smiled and were happy with their gifts, my daughter gave me a big hug and said 'You did good'!, my husband was happy with his gifts and had spent so much time ordering me special things he knew I'd love. I'm a happy, tired person today, and would love to spread the love and joy.

[cowgal]

December to remember so whos ready get your ass in gear

Glad for u rubes!!

I am glad also to be out & about, feeling my normal self again..... The lawyer I spoke w/ apologized profusely for missing our appt last week, spent nearly an hr on the phone, I see her Wed 8:30 right after work, cannot wait to get started, except that to do his right so I don't get screwed, will cost $3,000 for which mike won't pitch in... Oh well everyone said it would be rough but worth it ....

Lots of love all! Thx for always being here:thanks:

MA

[tlrgs]

December to remember so whos ready get your ass in gear

well hi there everyone well cowgal and ruby ,, i guess we have alot mia where oh where can they al be .. and well as for me sorry just having been myself lately .. oh well hope everyone is doing their best have a grweat night everyone stay strong and keep shifting in that right direction

[catch22]

December to remember so whos ready get your ass in gear

Me 2 Sorry ! x

Hi all just feeling guilty right now i did well all xmas day, but got home late and two of my presents were AL from my friends at work i did not even think they were AL they was in a box felt socked when i open them...Well at least i did not stock up this year feeling really bad in myself right now is that a good think? plus not feeling good! why do i do this, get to a stage where i feel ill and i say to myself that it.. anyway starting again today sorry for sounding like a broken recorded but a least i have come back a !

l:hve 2u all x

[cowgal]

December to remember so whos ready get your ass in gear

sweetie!!

We've all been there, :l:l:lforgive yourself, start anew today, next time u get a gift of al, maybe give it to someone as a gift, it will relieve u of the pressure and possible guilt, and make them feel good!!

That is what I would do now at this stage of the game, although, I have a full rack of wine for guests, no desire to drink it at all..............u will eventually get to that stage...............btw, not taking the bottles when I leave(good idea!)

Fearing this divorce, but will be ok I think..............have a great day all, will check in later and definitely tonight as I have another 12 hr loooonnnnggg shift, tonight and tomorrow, then off Thur, Fri.......but then a 3 day work weekend.............................man I wish the economy was better..........it's not here at least anyway.

on a lighter note, off to the gym, meeting a gf to give her a pic of her kitty cat...........then having a consult w/ a trainer, who I probably won't be able to hire due to the fact of the $$$ needed for divorce..............we'll see.

love you guys, only a few days, then we have to keep our asses in gear next month, right!??

MA

[tlrgs]

December to remember so whos ready get your ass in gear

well good morning shifters .. glad you came back catch22 .. we have all been there and done thats ... so brush yourself off and this time if you get any al in the house give it away or just pour the stuff down the drain .. a pour out party ..

[rubywillow]

December to remember so whos ready get your ass in gear

I'm back in the saddle, sort of, trying to get a lot of things done so i won't have them hanging over my head, or have to do them again. I'm determined to make 2010 a simpler year. Hang in there, friends.