First MUCH LOVE from me to all of you !!!
I have 58 days AF today !!!
I'm really struggling NOT getting drunk right now.
I have been giong thru lots of bullshit drama with the EX lately.
As many of you know I was AWOL for a bit due to computer crash.
(By the way THANK YOU all SOOOOO much for your concern)!!!!
Anyway I was going thru big time withdrawal with out you all.
I had a PC at the ex's that I left for my girls.
But she let the internet get turned off so I asked her if I could use it till I could get my laptop fixed.
She refused to bring it to me (as many know she TOTALLED MY car).
I asked many times but she refused.
So I got a cab that I could not afford (still no job).
And went and got it.
Well now she has filed a restraining order aginst me !!!
And filed theft charges !!
She tells me that I come to MWO "just to play" !!
That I don't need the computer.
It's MY fucking Computer !!!
I have to rent a truck (that I can't afford) to get the last of my stuff out of the there with the police there!!!
She turned me into child support for not paying the full ammount (2,000 a month).
I only get 1,800 a month from unemployment !!!
And have rent and all the other bills to pay.
Then tonight she tells me that I'm trading one addiction AL for another Campral the anti-addiction med I'm on!!!
What a bitch !!!!
Why the FUCK do I still love her !!!
Why can't I just put her in a hole and forget her forever !!!
I really just want to get SHITFACED drunk and forget it all !!!!
But I WON'T !!
I CAN'T !!
NOT EVER AGAIN !!!
But I REALLY WANT to !!!
I'm sorry for the rant.
I'm just so hartbroke,ANGRY,and frustrated !!!
I'm not even going to read what i just wrote.
I just to needed to puke this all out!!
Hope I didn't get any on you all !!!
Again I LOVE YOU ALL !!!!!!
Much LOVE and PEACE to you all !!!!
Bob
ps. sorry for the rant !!
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