Army Thread 5th December

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Good morning everyone!
Sorry I have been a bit scarce recently, I seem to be going through some horrible crappy emotional stuff that is hanging over me like a dark cloud.
Luckily though Im not in danger of drinking or pills so thats a relief I guess.
Just need to step back and take a look at what all this shit is I think. Boy oh boy, sometimes its just so obvious why we want to numb out isnt it?
Essentially I am OK though, just doing a bit of soul searching. If you find it will you send the fecker home please? :H

[Pan]

Army Thread 5th December

Hi Starts. Sorry to hear you are feeling a bit rough around the edges. I haven't been around either. Computer failed and then the one I rebuilt caught fire. Have another one now. On slow dial up tho.

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Army Thread 5th December

Hiya Panny! How are you girl? Sorry about your 'puter. Thats a bitch eh?

[Pan]

Army Thread 5th December

Yes, being without a pute for six weeks or so was not so nice. Was especially scary when one caught fire.

I'm now getting a lot of disturbing messages that I'm being tracked. I will get off and investigate what's going on with my firewall.

I'm good but really pissed off with Mr Pan at the mo. He is being a total shithead. If I felt like speaking TO him I would ask him to check this problem out, but I don't feel like getting spoken AT.

[Pan]

Army Thread 5th December

So, what's up, Girl?

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Army Thread 5th December

Oh Panny, without wishing to delve into my murky past, I really think this is to do with some sort of rejection issue I have. I can get be floored so bloody easily by seemingly innocuous comments. They can cut to the quick.
Reading it here it sounds absolutely daft I know.....

[Pan]

Army Thread 5th December

No, it doesn't sound daft at all. Feelings are a very personal thing and all sorts of things that may seem innocuous to others can be absolutely devastating. I understand what you are saying. How can I be of help?

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Army Thread 5th December

Thanks Pan, I think its just something I need to explore a bit.
So whats Mr Pan up to? Does he need a good kick up the arse??

[Pan]

Army Thread 5th December

At the mo he is watching the car racing. Vroom noises are reveraberating around the lounge, although he has had the consideration to turn it down a little. When that is finished I expect he will fall asleep in the recliner chair. I am living with an old man it seems. I am older than him and I still manage to stay awake all day. I hope he does fall asleep. I would like to feel like I am on my own in the house. That's as close as I will get. Then again, maybe, just maybe, he will get up some energy and take the dogs for a walk and give me some peace. The dogs and I have already been on our own down the beach, but they won't quibble if he just takes them around the block, I'm sure.

He's been a total shit today, has sworn at me a number of times and will not apologise and now is expecting me to capitulate and speak to him. I won't do it. Let him think about the way he has spoken to me for a while. I probably won't speak to him until tomorrow. I am answering questions that he is now nicely asking, since I think he's realised how angry I am, but I am not elaborating.

This is how I am giving him a good kick up the arse. Thanks for asking.

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Army Thread 5th December

Put some laxative in his food, that'll get him running around :-)
Seriously though, I can understand how pissed off you must feel with him right now.
Maybe when you are less angry you could have a chat about the stuff that bothers you? Would that make any difference?

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I need to get a wriggle on Pan.
It was lovely to see you again, keep in touch and take good care wont you?

[Pan]

Army Thread 5th December

Starts, the main thing that bothers me is he just doesn't LISTEN. So no. The huge argument that ensued this morning was BECAUSE he doesn't listen. He abused me because I drove in the wrong direction because he DID NOT LISTEN when I asked him for directions. Sounds completley stupid and it is! If he would listen instead of waiting to hear the next thing that comes out of his mouth, he might just learn something. Trouble is, HE DOES NOT LISTEN! Also confuses left from right and that is the main reason I got abused. I told him I would have to tatoo left and right on the appropriate hands so he sent me in the correct direction. He told me to to turn left. He actually meant to turn right. That was the whole start of this morning's outing. Needless to say, I turned the car around and dumped him at home. I went to the library and then out to take some photos.

[Pan]

Army Thread 5th December

See ya Starts. Chin up.

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Army Thread 5th December

He abused you???

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Army Thread 5th December

Pan I really have to go now, but I am so sorry he is being such an ass.
You keep your chin up too.