I was 8 years old

[Guitarista]

I was 8 years old

G'day Pan,
I'm sorry to hear you went through that, let alone as an 8 year old. I think it's got to be a very important start to your healing journey, the fact you are talking about it, and asking for suggestions. I would only echo what the other folk's have suggested, and that is maybe try some professional help, and talk it out.
I'm just a name on a screen, but you know i'm alway's around if i can do anything.

Go for it!.............G-Force.

[rubywillow]

I was 8 years old

Pan, it is a fact that many, maybe most women with addiction disorders were molested sexually some way during their lifetime. You were. I was. It leaves a deep, dark wound, and it's not easy to heal, or to live with the scar. Talking about it is the first, and biggest step. :hugs:

[Pan]

I was 8 years old

Hey all. Thankyou from the bottom of my heart. I have an appointment tomorrow with my GP and I'm going to ask for a referral to a Psychologist. I already know that he will prescribe antidepressants. They seem to be his calling card. Maybe I need them, maybe not. I don't really want to take drugs if there is a better approach. I'll let you know how I go. Love Pan x

[Angelcakes]

I was 8 years old

Hey Pan...I'm so sorry to hear what happened to you. One important thing - it was not your fault, you didn't deserve or invite the dreadful behaviour from that guy. No, you didn't (I can hear you saying 'but I thought he was my boyfriend, I thought he loved me, I was there) He was the adult, he knew it was inappropriate - his wrong doing.
I'm glad you're off to the doctor. Did you read Fickles link to the Amino Acids thread?? If you don't want to do the anti-d's (understandably) maybe you could give the natural route a try - work on diet, walking the doggies, supplements & some AF time. Wanna do 30 days with me?? Life's too short for this shit...:l

xo

[Pan]

I was 8 years old

Hi Angel. No, I didn't read Fick's link, but I will. As predicted, my doc asked me to go on meds and as is predictable with me, I said no. He's asked me to give it further thought. He has referred me to a psychologist, but I can't get in until late Jan or Feb. Yep, I'll do 30 days with ya, thanks. As soon as what I've got runs out. Shouldn't be long.

[Angelcakes]

I was 8 years old

OK mate - you're on.

[Tipplerette]

I was 8 years old

Are you feeling guilty because you 'liked' it? That's the feeling I am getting. At 8 years old I would have loved the attention of an older boy and probably fallen into the same line of thinking as you did. We don't feel very loveable in our families sometimes when we are young and any attention is so important for our little fragile self-esteems. You were not wrong here. I know you know this intellectually but you have to sell it you your whole self; your heart, your soul and your self-judgemental side. Forgive yourself for something that needs no forgiving to anyone but you. I am right. You were a little girl and only knew that an older boy paid you special attention and it felt good. Meditate on it. I hope you can get through this so you begin to feel deserving of a loving relationship and stop depending on alcohol to dim your emotions. I am not on the other end of my journey but I think I understand you. Take care and be good to that little 8 year old girl that was in need of attention. She's still you!

[Wagoneer]

I was 8 years old

Pan - I am so sorry for your struggles. You are in my thoughts.