Hi, Everyone,
I doubt anyone here will remember me.
I participated on MWO for over a year and then quit when a friend got banned. This person made me laugh as no other person (real or cyber) could and then was no longer allowed to participate. I was so mystified that I felt very unsafe continuing. My friend was deeply kind to me (as well as to others) and got me through a LOT.
Roberta, I can imagine that my return is making you cringe. I am so sorry! I don't want to cause anyone suffering. If you (or, anyone else) want me to leave as well, please tell me.
I'm back because some severe stresses have "caused" my alcohol consumption to increase. Really, I feel that alcohol is my emotional umbillicus to my deceased mother who drank heavily at midlife. Also, I am beginning to wonder whether there is a connection between my possible sugar addiction (perhaps, an odd thing given that my choice of wine is always something very dry and I greatly prefer the darkest chocolates), and my alcohol cravings.
For some time, there was a woman named Mary who signed on as MKR who seemed to have a pattern similar to mine. She got better and moved on, and so I missed her, too. Mighty Mouse II, where are you? Tumadre, I miss you and hope that you are doing well. DiLayne, you've been in my thoughts. Namaste! There were a several other lovely souls who became important to me who got better (I hope!) and then left, and I started to feel sad about those losses, too. Although I live thousands of miles from where I grew up, I've tend to keep my friendships forever. And, while it might seem odd in light of the fact that I have so many real life friendships, these cyber pals understood a part of me that no one else even recognizes--my disordered drinking--and I grew to care deeply about them and about their struggles.
If anyone remembers me, my life is fundamentally the same. Nonetheless, my father, a very light drinker, is dying and I cry every day about that. He is a really good fighter, super smart and is dying at age 79 of a birth defect. Odd, I know. It has been pointed out to me more than once that "he's had a really long run, given . . . ".
My more recent relationship with MWO has been one of a consumer. I purchase HUGE quantities of supplements about once or twice a year.
If anyone remembers me and wants me to leave, please tell me. I realize that my disappearing act, while defensive, could have hurt the feelings of others and I don't want to continue to act in a disrespectful vein.
If anyone feels that it is ok that I stay, please let me know. I'm really scared because I'm now drinking about a bottle of wine each day and I know that I'm on a slippery slope.
Yours, E
I doubt anyone here will remember me.
I participated on MWO for over a year and then quit when a friend got banned. This person made me laugh as no other person (real or cyber) could and then was no longer allowed to participate. I was so mystified that I felt very unsafe continuing. My friend was deeply kind to me (as well as to others) and got me through a LOT.
Roberta, I can imagine that my return is making you cringe. I am so sorry! I don't want to cause anyone suffering. If you (or, anyone else) want me to leave as well, please tell me.
I'm back because some severe stresses have "caused" my alcohol consumption to increase. Really, I feel that alcohol is my emotional umbillicus to my deceased mother who drank heavily at midlife. Also, I am beginning to wonder whether there is a connection between my possible sugar addiction (perhaps, an odd thing given that my choice of wine is always something very dry and I greatly prefer the darkest chocolates), and my alcohol cravings.
For some time, there was a woman named Mary who signed on as MKR who seemed to have a pattern similar to mine. She got better and moved on, and so I missed her, too. Mighty Mouse II, where are you? Tumadre, I miss you and hope that you are doing well. DiLayne, you've been in my thoughts. Namaste! There were a several other lovely souls who became important to me who got better (I hope!) and then left, and I started to feel sad about those losses, too. Although I live thousands of miles from where I grew up, I've tend to keep my friendships forever. And, while it might seem odd in light of the fact that I have so many real life friendships, these cyber pals understood a part of me that no one else even recognizes--my disordered drinking--and I grew to care deeply about them and about their struggles.
If anyone remembers me, my life is fundamentally the same. Nonetheless, my father, a very light drinker, is dying and I cry every day about that. He is a really good fighter, super smart and is dying at age 79 of a birth defect. Odd, I know. It has been pointed out to me more than once that "he's had a really long run, given . . . ".
My more recent relationship with MWO has been one of a consumer. I purchase HUGE quantities of supplements about once or twice a year.
If anyone remembers me and wants me to leave, please tell me. I realize that my disappearing act, while defensive, could have hurt the feelings of others and I don't want to continue to act in a disrespectful vein.
If anyone feels that it is ok that I stay, please let me know. I'm really scared because I'm now drinking about a bottle of wine each day and I know that I'm on a slippery slope.
Yours, E
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