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[Lucy Van Pelt]

ok guys I have never posted a thread before...and have no idea if this is the place to do it...it probably isn't. I think I will post it in "my story" as well but... most of you know me, so here it goes...

I won't give a long history...I know it doesn't belong here...suffice it to say I am lucky that I don't have a crazy, messed up childhood. I guess I just got some addiction genes....I am a high functioning drinker who has a serious problem. Since I have been on this site, I have had some major success. Mostly, the support of the people here and especially Topamax has helped tremedously. I am not out of the woods at all. I still love to drink. I sneak alcohol (my family would be so scared if I drink anything at all) and I know that just doing that is obviously not normal. I haven't had a blackout since I started topamax which is amazing since I think I had one every night for years before (and got up every morning for work at 6 am). yes, I am a professional, much more important to me, I am a mother, a wife, and a friend. Most everyone I know would never guess I have this problem, other than those closest to me. I appear fit and together...like many of us.


OK...M husband is home...I got to end this.... so....hope this isn't innappriate...

thats all

Beth

[gabby]

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cool Beth....glad you posted...see....its easy! gabbs

[gabby]

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I really think this is important so I wanna tell you again! See how fun that was? : ) gabby

[YoungAtHeart]

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Hi Beth!

Hey Beth,

Welcome to the wild world of posting!! It's good to see you here, and your post isn't inappropriate at all! See you soon on chat! I hope you will reply to posts as well. Everyone here will benefit so much from your insight!

Love,
Kathy:h

[Newyear]

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Hi Beth---Good first post
Sounds to me like you have had great progress here - that is so encouraging to hear.
Lisa

[skempy]

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Hi Beth,
...right there with you, my friend! Keep posting!

skempy

[cpn1004]

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Beth,
Welcome. Great post.
We are all on the journey.
Love and Peace,
Phil

[C]

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I remember you bak310. Thank you for posting. I am not out of the woods either. But something in me keeps saying that I am better off hangin in here & admitting & continuing on (however slow)...than not.

[C]

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Oh - PS -bak310--what do you do? -- professionally I mean-- other than being a fantastic mother & wife.. if you can say...if not, that is fine too

[Lucy Van Pelt]

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chysalis

Actually, I am a clinical psychologist....how is that for irony, huh? I have been in the field since 1986 although just since June have started doing my own private psycho-educational testing, which means I basically now marketing myself to schools and individuals, so this is a new chapter, career-wise.

Back to drinking....I have decided to go completely abs...I was going to wait until oct. 1st, as a few of us here were starting on that date but....anyone willing to start with me today? (Sept 28th?). I think I am ready...would love a partner.

Any takers?

[happycamper68]

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Beth go on the abs board there's lots of support there from people that didn't start today but already started either on 9/1 or wayyyyy before. Not quite ready today hon or I'd do it with you. Maybe you can get Not Powerless to start today you should PM her she wanted to do abs.

SO glad you posted. :h

[YoungAtHeart]

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Almost there....

Hi, Beth!

Starting ABs over the weekend isn't my forte. After my slip last weekend I'm trying to keep it to a minimum...two glasses last night. But I definitely want to get back to ABs next week. Camper is right though, comon over to Absville! You'll get so much support! I love it there, and they will support you through thick and thin!

Hugs,
Kathy:l

[GratefulEm]

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Thank-you

Bak310 - Thank-you for posting that you are a clinical psychologist. This must be very hard for you. Also, I thank-you for responding to my post about professionals. Actually, I've been thinking I need to go get some counseling from a professional counselor. I posted about "where have all the professionals gone" mostly because I didn't know how I was going to hold it together this year and was looking for others in the same circumstances. I've been an emotional mess this month with my mother going seriously downhill from Parkinsons - the medications worked well for a couple years but the disease seems to be stepping in now. My son went to Iraq last month and that is tearing me apart too. This coincides with me trying to get a grip on my issues. I teach highschool. I teach both psychology and history. History is my passion and I'm a very deep thinker about it and read all the time. I'm glad that you posted and hope you'll stay around. I teach what you practice, only I teach it to 17 year olds. Just last week I was trying to teach Freud's Psycho-sexual stages. We were dicussing the oral stage and how a child could be fixated there from underindulgence. I asked how that could happen. This very immature kid, who happened to be black, and had been bounced around alot in his life, blurted out, "he didn't get enough tittie!" Oyyy!
Sometimes I hate this stage of history so much and what we're living now. I think it's why I just want to zone out every night. I've given up on the human race. The end of history isn't going to be pretty. Humans have never had a good period if you think about it honestly. We only escape through materialism, alcoholism and all other kinds of means. Who can even call them addictions when humans behave towards each other like this? Maybe they are just ways of saving your sanity. Kinda of like multiple personalities.
Em

[Helensback]

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I have a cold coming on. And like most of us, I mentioned it to various people - co-workers, husband, gas station guy. You know, we all do it - all the usual suspects.

And 8 times out of 10, I hear: "Take some Advil Cold and Sinus - great stuff!" "Echinacia - it'll stop it or slow it down a lot" - "Contact C - REALLY helps with the build-up!" etcetera.

The "drug culture".

Funny how it is:

When we feel we have an overwhelming thought coming on - a thought that is making us feel sick; we are expected to deal with it in a non-drugged state.

"It's just not right!" We are surrounded by the values that make it amazingly not 'culture-productive'.

But the sober state is truly the optimum - as we have found out the hard way.

I have found this state is not encouraged as a general rule - unless of course your drug of choice is alcohol.

The Catch 22 is our drug of choice.

Let's all develop a problem with Kaopectate.

That should fix pretty much everything, eh? Think of all the things we can't do when we have to watch our bowels.

A black out would be a thing of the past.

We'd know exactly what to think about at all times.

Anyone want to sign a petition?

[Lucy Van Pelt]

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em

you are obviously are a very sensitive personan and a vey deep thinker. Those are wonderful attrubutes, but probobly do not do well for you when you are dealing with such difficult life issues!! I am so sorry that your post here came across a little rough around the edges. All of us here, like you, are just people struggling in one way or another, trying to figure things out.

For you, I can only try to appreciate how hard it has been. Yes I am a professional, and a mom. and I have an issue with alcohol. anyway, I if you want to talk more personlly about stuff, feel free to PM mee, and I will give you more info about my life, and we can share...ok?

Hope we can get to know each other better.

Beth