30 days ???

[cowgal]

30 days ???

Bump

I wanted to bump this thread up cuz u guys help me so, this and ass in gear are my favorites, and baclofen too..... Upped the dose, will keep going, but not while I am here at work cuz it makes me so sleepy!!!

Love you all!!!

MA

[cowgal]

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bump

guess I am the only one around??!!

[brittzak]

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I am here MA. Been a bit under the weather because I had some dental work and didnt fair to well. Hope you are hanging in there.

[cowgal]

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sorry

I am starting to feel under the weather too..................sucks!!!:upset::upset:

MA

[greeneyes]

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Hey MA, all the more reason to nurture yourself. TLC!!

Luv, your dental discomfort, is it just temporary?

[brittzak]

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Oh yes Greenie. Had an abscess, he pulled the tooth, broke the bone at the gum line...the meds made me deathly ill....I have stopped taking it all because I cant keep anything down. My God I havent been this sick in ages! This is like one of my worst hangovers. Shit I do not miss this crap, but I havent drank a drop in months. I dont know how I used to live feeling this way daily.

[toughintexas]

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Sorry you had troubles LUV, you know I was a dental hygienist, and I never had had a toothache, thought folks were being weanies when they came in the office til I broke a tooth in half on a corn nut at at horse show..thought I was going to die, seriously. Hope you get better! Greenie good to see you, MA, I'm trying hard hard on the AF....I've got to do it, period. Started on the bac myself again, til I get Campral, lots say Campral works and has no side effects...was just on chat, and I was amazed by what some said about it....bac just tears my gut up, and I don't want to feel lazy on it and not be able to work out....geeeezzzzzzz, I'm so tired of trying to get this down.....lol....I'm determined tho, so surely I'll graduate soon!

[cowgal]

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still af

I am still af, but all my wierd feelings and thoughts are scaring me...................actually so afraid of the divorce I was/am thinking of calling the lawyer and telling her I changed my mind, mike got paid cash for alot of his jobs, said it will look like I made more than him and I will have to pay him alimony and wants to have joint custody of kids so I won't have child support or see them as much if at all..................only weekends, he says he is going to get a good lawyer now................I am going to have to give the horses away, will kill me......................am so down, sleepy and getting sick but still hating the way I feel and thinking about drinking ALOT!!! nobody really to talk to................my sponsor says since she just relapsed a month ago, her sponsor told her not to be my sponsor anymore..............feel like I am all alone...................sad.................sorry to vent..........................good night.................MA

[brittzak]

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Alright MA....get back into perspective...yeah losing the horses is rough...but hell if you're drunk all the time and with Mike, when ya gonna ride them? The boys....honey they are damn near grown. What ya holding on to? Maybe a couple more years and they move out anyways. Mike isnt gonna get alimony. You need to tell him u have copies of cancelled checks and you PRAY he tries that shit in court cause you would LOVE LOVE to send the IRS right up his ass. Now see, you got me cussing. He is an idiot and you are letting him manipulate you. He isnt gonna do any of that. AND if he has the boys...you dont need childsupport. I think you would be surprised how care free your life can be without him sucking the life outta you. Stop letting him screw with your mind. Dont talk to him...he is an idiot sober so drunk he is just a lunatic. If he needs to say something to you...tell him to call your attorney, if he calls again tell him you will get a restraining order. Mike is the kinda guy that thrives on your fear of him because he is a LOSER and he knows he is...his only power is his control over you. STOP...stop letting him abuse you. You are to good for this BS. Now...call me if you need to talk. God knows I aint the queen of sobriety, but I do know drinking is not the answer here.

[cowgal]

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ok

I hear you, I also need to get a lock on this bedroom door, I just want to sleep and he keeps coming in, first time he kept saying he loves me, and I just kept saying I am tired, I like him, but I need to go to sleep....................he asked me to go to dinner earlier, I asked him where Allie(his new gal)was and he said he cannot get in touch w/ her.......................probably why now he just came in yelling "where did you put my (pt) pipe, I know u took it, where is it".................I hate you you are such a bitch, I am going to kill you.............kept saying that, I wish to god I had a tape recorder, I would play it for all his family and the judge to hear.....................this used to happen all the time(not the pot pipe part, and I have NO idea where it went or who took it, one of the kids??) Oh I KNOW I am not making a mistake.................I will put this on fb, or maybe delete the one about maybe making a mistake, maybe all that is inappropriate for that place??? I don't know, I am sooo tired and confused, too late to call people, I know I wouldn't be happy getting a call at this time unless I was bored at work................................leaving this here will update fb tomorrow.......................love you all,:h:h you have been right for years, fear is just creeping up on me and it is driving me nutso.

Love you all.............:l:h

MA

[greeneyes]

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MA, it's a roller coaster remember? His behavior isn't a suprise. Your mind is made up. You are not making a mistake. Keep that first and formost in your mind and try not to react to him. I understand your wanting a lock. In my imagination, I see him coming to the door in one of his moods and it being locked turns into a banging shouting issue that may be more disturbing than him just being able to call you a bitch. So think on it OK? Hang in there. And ditto what Luv said.

[cowgal]

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no kidding!

I feel weird, at least I am and will be (FOR ME!) af for the rest of this and then some, feeling great at this baclofen dose.........................I am going to make this an awesome day, off, then working tomorrow and Wed.................off Thurs and Friday, then the 3 day span, don't like that too much................will make double time mon tho as it is mlk day, right??

Definitely feeling medicine headed today, going to a meeting at noon w/ bf and then to the gym, will hopefully feel better then..............then read for a while, getting a good book, looking forward to it, LOVE to read...............

love u guys,:l:h thanks for all your advice, wish I took it years ago.......:thanks:...........but hindsight is 20/20, right??

MA

[greeneyes]

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bf??? bf???? what bf???

[cowgal]

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Best friend

Sorry is best way to put it bff? Used bbf(best best friend) and was picked on for doing it wrong.......no bf(is thar boyfriend?) now, definitely not ready for that for a while, have many male friends helping tho.

MA

[greeneyes]

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I thought bf was boyfriend, but then what do I know! :H:H If that were the case I was going to ask if you were crazy!