Hi guys. Im a 28 year old girl here with severe alcohol problems. I ordered baclofen and tomorrow am going AF for at least a month. My drinking went from binges once a week out at bars to nightly and when I dont have a job as of lately ill go to eat at applebees in the afternoon, have a few beers, and then a bottle of wine a night!! so basically lately its been daily even. The scariest thing for me is the drunk driving. Those afternoon things where I have two or three beers, I feel ok to drive. i know im over the limit but I feel ok, so i dont consider that to be that bad. although I am aware that if i ever got into an accident and hurt someone, id be charged and put away for years. However, my biggest fear is those days where i mess up and drink during the day, then realize i wanna go to my friends or get more alcohol. ( while drunk) and i feel OK often, but am really NOT ok. like the rooms not spinning so i feel ok. this is while im drunk , the next day i wake up and wanna kill myself for driving drunk. there has been several times also that the room was spinning and ive driven. Point is, i wish more than anything i can stop it. i got an ignition interlock breathalizer installed in my car, but it was such a pain number one, number 2, if i drank the previous night i would have a .04 or 0.2 and the car wouldnt start and i couldnt go to work. it happened many times, so i had to take it of the car. that cost me 100 per month and 400 to put it, but thast how much i wanted to make sure the driving never happened. ive gotten into three drinking accidents. one wasnt my fault, my bf was driving. the first one when i was driving was when iwas younger and took my car out to bars not realizing the whole drinking and driving being wrong,e tc. but the second one i had gone out and had three or four glasses of wine and drove, feelingn drunk. hit someone in front of me when they stopped short-cops came-did NOT test me thank GOD. it was daytime and like i said, even though im drunk i dont feel it always, like felt ok to drive and act normal. so i didnt show signs. this has happened since my tolerance has skyrocketed. didnt use to be that way when i binged on weekends.
So I'm curious about a few things. number one, anyone know of anything i can do besides being Alcohol free to not drink and drive? any thouhts on what i can do? i was thinking of getting the portable breathalizer just so i can blow into it and see the reading before i get in the car-bc like i said, while in that state, im not thinking right but i do feel ok to drive often.(anyone else feel like that?) or putting a picture of a jail cell on my car steering wheel! only problem is other people could see it. hehe
Second, i was wondering if after all this daily drinking ive been doing the past few months, is it possible to reverse your brainc hemistry? like, right now-i OBSESS over alcohol. i need it to feel normal. not even good anymore just normal. i wake up and think of it. when iw as drinking nightly after workk this wasnt the case. i would think of it but not obsess, and just have my bottle of wine at night. so when i start my new job will my brain go back to just wanting it at night or will i still crave and obsess all day!
tomorrow i start my month AF and baclofen, the new drug everyone talks about on here. Im hoping i will love being af after a few weeks. i know its goign to be so hard the first few days my gosh.. im gonna feel so depressed and bored. im nervous lonely and scared..
im curiuos also how many of you have the same issues as me as far as drinking and driving? like u just end up doing it sometimes and wanna kill yourself after?
So I'm curious about a few things. number one, anyone know of anything i can do besides being Alcohol free to not drink and drive? any thouhts on what i can do? i was thinking of getting the portable breathalizer just so i can blow into it and see the reading before i get in the car-bc like i said, while in that state, im not thinking right but i do feel ok to drive often.(anyone else feel like that?) or putting a picture of a jail cell on my car steering wheel! only problem is other people could see it. hehe
Second, i was wondering if after all this daily drinking ive been doing the past few months, is it possible to reverse your brainc hemistry? like, right now-i OBSESS over alcohol. i need it to feel normal. not even good anymore just normal. i wake up and think of it. when iw as drinking nightly after workk this wasnt the case. i would think of it but not obsess, and just have my bottle of wine at night. so when i start my new job will my brain go back to just wanting it at night or will i still crave and obsess all day!
tomorrow i start my month AF and baclofen, the new drug everyone talks about on here. Im hoping i will love being af after a few weeks. i know its goign to be so hard the first few days my gosh.. im gonna feel so depressed and bored. im nervous lonely and scared..
im curiuos also how many of you have the same issues as me as far as drinking and driving? like u just end up doing it sometimes and wanna kill yourself after?
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