I've been lurking since New Years when I finally admitted to myself that I have a serious problem with alcohol and must start to consider myself an alcoholic. My addictive mind tries to justify the amount of booze I have been consuming but when it comes down to it I just can't believe someone who does not have an alcohol problem will:
-down a bottle of wine in 10 minutes because the cannot cope with a visit from family
-steal swigs alcohol from the in-law's pantry during family visits
-end up in a psychiatric ward for a week after going mental from mixing anti-depressants with alcohol
-drink red wine from a travel mug on the way to the cabin
-think its appropriate to start drinking the first of many at 3:00 on a regular basis
-be 32 with numb toes and tingling fingers
-lie awake at night worrying about being an alcoholic
I have not been drinking since New Years Eve and am already starting to feel like a new person. I am putting off going to AA because I think it will make me uncomfortable (True addict, trying to avoid any negative feeling). I am going to try and participate on this board for support and get support from my wonderful husband. I am reading books about addiction and getting sober and am feeling really good and confident!
Just an introduction!
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