no I'll be ok.. got Ollie here making toastie chocolate fingers for him..
can't go to the carnaval it is tropical storm weather here, extreemly bad wind and rain got roads closed thru rock falls had to go all around the valley to get Ollie, the sea is raging all ferries and flights between the islands have been stopped
got my head back on right... be honest was very shakey to get a drink, but I stopped and realised I could lose ollie and for what...a fucking drink because of him..
I mustn't let him still get to me, but it's so very hard once some one has had control on your mind..
only way I can describe it to some one who hasn't lived it is...you know you're gonna get it, don't know how to avoid it, panic sets in and are powerless to stop it..
liiving in fear is no way to live..
I'll be ok
:l:h:l
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