Day 6 AF

[sick of being sick]

I had a very emotional day yesterday but I feel great today! I put on the hypnosis CD when I finally went to bed last night. Fell alseep half way through, but it was the best sleep I've had in a long time! I got my baclofen and a new book that I am excited about "The Easy Way to Stop Drinking" in today! My husband coming home this evening. I thought I would clean the house real good, cook him a nice meal and look fantastic for him, but then I thought "why set myself up to be rejected again?". Most likely, he will come home tired and ill with a bottle in his hand. I'm so tired of trying to please others and always failing, but I can't give up. Maybe this time will be different. Otherwise, I will be in chat tonight crying my heart out AGAIN! Hope all of you have a great day! :l

[Sheepish]

Day 6 AF

Hey Sobs-
why don't you do the above like you said- but do it FOR YOU..? You deserve a nice meal, a clean house and to look good. If your husband notices- a bonus. But if he is in his world- can you still find some satisfaction in doing this for you?
-S

[mario]

Day 6 AF

Sheepish;820400 wrote: Hey Sobs-
why don't you do the above like you said- but do it FOR YOU..? You deserve a nice meal, a clean house and to look good. If your husband notices- a bonus. But if he is in his world- can you still find some satisfaction in doing this for you?
-S

ditto

[mama bear]

Day 6 AF

double ditto SOS....do it for you baby!!!!!
I LOVE the CD's...always knock me out......

[KateH1]

Day 6 AF

Sheepish;820400 wrote: Hey Sobs-
why don't you do the above like you said- but do it FOR YOU..? You deserve a nice meal, a clean house and to look good. If your husband notices- a bonus. But if he is in his world- can you still find some satisfaction in doing this for you?
-S

Sheep put it perfectly!

There is nothing worse than constantly trying to EARN the Love or Attention of anyone, especially a spouse. In fact, having "Expectations for another person", often leads to a huge let down. When you think of it, it really is a form of manipulation. Manipulation does not work, at least not in the long run!

Take care of yourself first.......this is a true sign of love for everyone else!

XXX Kate

[sick of being sick]

Day 6 AF

Yeh, I haven't really got the "do it for yourself" thing down yet. I learned at a very early age, I had to earn love from my parents and from every relationship I've ever had. Feel like I have failed at all of them. Hey, but my pomerian loves me! I don't see anything in me that is lovable. Maybe that low self esteem will fade away, but I really don't know how to "NOT" try to earn love and approval. Maybe it is manipulation, Kate, but is it so wrong just to want to be loved?