Wierd thing happend last night

[princesskat]

I don't post offen but I do lurk. I'm at 150mg of topa and still drink nightly. I don't go running around or anything, drink at home.

Last night doing my normal thing. Had several vodka and Frescas, ate dinner. I generally don't remember much about what happens towards the end of the night. I assumed that was what a blackout was. What happend last night scared me and was really bizarre. Looking back on it I guess it could be considered funny but I don't think so.

Last thing I remember was eating, then trying to light a cigerette. I couldn't get the cigerette to light. I remember puffing and puffing trying to get it to light. Then all of a sudden I "came to" and realized that I was trying to light a steak knife. I had the handle end of a steak knife in my mough and was trying to light the cutting end of the knife with my lighter. It was charred black. I was like "whoa", ok, it is time to go to bed. I was totally freaked out. I might add that I was also totally exhausted.

I keep thinking about this and just wondering how something like that could happen. If I would do something like that what else would I do? Was that a true blackout because I "came back to"?

I'd been thinking I need to up my topa dose the next time I go to the doc. Might me a good idea.

Any words of wisdom?

Kat

[xtexan]

Wierd thing happend last night

Hi PrincessKat:

Well, if I had a nickel for every cigarette filter that I have lit in the last 35 years, well, I would probably have a whole lot of nickles.

Never tried to light a steak knife though.

I also, had about six cigarettes all lit at the same time once or twice sitting in an ashtray. Somebody would point out that I was pretty blasted, and I could only agree.

Never tried to light a steakknife though.

I have done some things though, while in an outright blackout, that are too embarrassing to put down in words.

I don't know what to say. I never took the Topa to get to my own abstinence, but others have posted some things of a similar nature. Maybe they will have a a few experiences to relate.

Neil

[YoungAtHeart]

Wierd thing happend last night

Hi Princess

I'm not a veteran of blackouts, although it sounds like you did have a bit of one, even though you did "come to" at the end. Maybe what they call a "gray out".

I do have some experience with the topa though, and it sounds like your body has gotten very used to drinking on 150 mgs of topa. I think that you need to talk to your doc as soon as you can about getting to a higher dose. Some people dont really see the therapeutic effects until 200 mgs or higher.

In the past, when I have gotten myself into a state and have been drinking on the higher doses of topa, I have even titrated back down for a week or so before titrating back up again. It seems to help to boost the effectiveness of the topa again. Also, are you taking the kudzu? If not, you can really help to boost the effects of the topa by taking it.

Good luck to you, Princess Kat. I am hoping that the day will come for you when you CAN truly laugh at this because you will have a different relationship with alcohol. I know that must have been scary! I'm glad you had the blunt end of the knife in your mouth!

Hugs and love,
Kathy:l

[Harleydad52]

Wierd thing happend last night

Hi PK
I'm new here, but not new to a black outs... which is what you may have had. I've had black outs where I don't remember coming home from NY city all the way to my house in New Jersey [on 'auto pilot' I guess]. What kinda concerns me aboout your experience is that you 'came to',,, ussually people wake up until the next day with no memory of what happened to them. As others have suggested, I would talk to your doctor about your dosage... also try and recall exactly how much [too much?] you drank and ate and when you took your meds. That combo [combined with your feeling of exhaustion] was a warning that you may not want to repeat those circumstances again.
Glad you could share and that it did make you realize that this is not a path to be taken again.
good luck,

ejm

[princesskat]

Wierd thing happend last night

Thanks for your responses. Yeah, it could be funny. And glad I didn't have the sharp end in my mouth! :H I'm due back soon to the doc to refill my script so I'll see if she will up it to 200mg. I really struggled with sharing this episode here. I did not share with my husband! It just freaked me out so bad. I've done some dumb things before but this????

Kat

[happycamper68]

Wierd thing happend last night

I'm only at 100mg but drinking wine and haven't had any gray or blackouts, and there have been nights I've drank a whole bottle. Do you think it's the topa in combo with the booze? That's a lot of booze to mix with the topa. How many drinks did you have again? I do agree you should take more topa and mayb switch to something that isn't not hard liquor. HC

[gateway]

Wierd thing happend last night

THERE's the answer. NO HARD LIQUOR. I CAN GUARANTEE IT.

[gateway]

Wierd thing happend last night

(i gotta get rid of that bambi. help plz someone pm me)

[gateway]

Wierd thing happend last night

did it work

[Quiescent]

Wierd thing happend last night

The topa didn't really kick in for me until I hit 200mgs.

I can tell you this though Topa makes you very tired! Adding alcohol to very tired can make you do things that are ever more bizzare than you might normally do while drinking. How do you take your topa? Do you space it out or take it all together? Maybe you could take the doses a little closer together during the time when you are most likely to drink?

Princess, do you measure your drinks? If you don't, the first thing I would start doing right away especially now is to measure each drink you have. One drink is one shot.

Write down each drink you have and count them the next day (you can enter them in the drink tracker here if you want, and you can make it public or private). I know it has helped me to have a goal in mind. For instance, I want to drink in moderation. More than three drinks in an evening isn't moderate to me so I haven't met my goal for that night. You can set your own goals but you get the idea.

If your goal is abstinence, keeping track is a good idea too. You can reduce the number of drinks per day or per week until you've weaned your body off the alcohol so you don't have to go cold turkey.

Just my thoughts......I hope it helps:l

[princesskat]

Wierd thing happend last night

I take 50mg in the morning and 100mg around 4:30 or 5:00pm. I usually don't have my first drink till about 7:30pm. No, I don't measure, but they are mostly Fresca with a top off of Vodka. Maybe 4 or 5 a night. Not trying for Abs at this point. Believe it or not, this is actually doing good for me. Maybe I should start taking the 50 that I take in the moring later in the day too, maybe with the 100 and just take it all at once? I'm one of the wierd ones that doesn't seem to get tired with the Topa and I don't get hangovers either. Since I started all the supps and the Topa I now get less sleep than I did before.

Thanks for all of the advice. Having Faith......
Kat

[Quiescent]

Wierd thing happend last night

Princess if you don't have a problem with drinking during the day and don't feel tired while taking topa there's no reason to take it in the morning.

My suggestion is to take 75mgs at 3:30 and then another 75 mgs at 6:30. You are covering your drinking hours that way.

I take 250mgs and really spread it out because it makes me really sleepy!

[princesskat]

Wierd thing happend last night

I took all 150mg at about 5:00pm tonight and came home from work and slept from about 7:00 till 8:30pm tonight...maybe your suggestion would be better..to split it apart at 3:30 at 6:30. I'll try that tomorrow night.. Thanks....

kat