The other day at my counseling sessions i was sayin how at night, i dont stop drinking tea, i go through 7cups of tea b4 i go to bed, has soon as i finish my cup im in the kitchen boiling the water for another cup and cant wait to pour myself another cuppa tea. It like im on edge as soon as i finish i got to get anothe cup and it getting on my nervers. Well my counsellor said that im role playing what i would of done, if i was drinking AL. He said it the way of coping with my addiction or habit, and the beauty part of it when im ready to break that habit of role playing in my own time. I find this really interesting that how i was not aware of this ! but it does make a lot of sense. Not sure what i like the best holding the cup or pouring the tea out or finishing my drink.
Also in the pass my counsellor said i dont give myself enough CREDIT so 2day im proud of myself and i like to share this with you for the very first time in my life i have done 3months sober. it not been easy, but it is so worth it. This time round im getting as much help as possible. Im looking good on the outside but the inside i have to work at now. Doggygirl mention on the AA thread about bottom, Physical, mental and Spiritaul, it made me realize that AL has taken all three away from me (and I WANT THEM BACK NOW), but in time i will get them back with a lot of hard work, its not going to happen over night. If you persevere it the benefit will show later on it takes time...
Thanks everyone on mwo you ALL mean a lot to ME.:l
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