The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!!
Well, I guess all my bitchin has run everybody off. I'm sorry but there's more. I just went outside to sit on the patio by myself and just started bawling and I realized I am SO DAMN angry!!! Ruby, I got really bad news for you...your husband's retirement is really gonna sux for you! I'm gonna explode if hubby don't go away! Somewhere..anywhere! I'm SO SICK of the 24/7 for 10 years now! I desperately need some ALONE time! I admit I am slow to forgive and that I'm insecure and can be jealous! The first day we get there hubby starts drinking, of course, so the 4 of us are laying on the beach and I gotta hear all these hurtful comments between my single, partying, playboy of a brother and my husband, like oh, look at that one, she's perfect. Then I here my husband say "the more the merrier"... HELLO? Wife of 20 years sitting here! Then when we are up on the blacony, I say something about it and he blows up and tells my brother and his slut everything I said and worse. Then everybody's on my case cause they're all drunk and I'm not! Then he leaves and I have to call him and apologize and beg him to come back (so we don't have to go bail his ass out of jail!) So from that point on I had to act like I was having a good time and watch her throw herself on brother and hubby and they was loving it. Hello...wife here? I have spent 20 not so good years with this man, giving him my very best that I can and he obviously DOES NOT appreciate me! In fact, if it wasn't for the money, I don't think he would even be here. It is my inheritance that bought this place and that we are living on! He's doing good if he makes $100 a week! I'm sorry. I'm hurt, I'm mad and I'm stuck! I'm so thankful today is Sunday and the liquor store is closed cause now that I'm dealing with all those feelings, I wanna be drunk and numbed out! :upset:
Well, I guess all my bitchin has run everybody off. I'm sorry but there's more. I just went outside to sit on the patio by myself and just started bawling and I realized I am SO DAMN angry!!! Ruby, I got really bad news for you...your husband's retirement is really gonna sux for you! I'm gonna explode if hubby don't go away! Somewhere..anywhere! I'm SO SICK of the 24/7 for 10 years now! I desperately need some ALONE time! I admit I am slow to forgive and that I'm insecure and can be jealous! The first day we get there hubby starts drinking, of course, so the 4 of us are laying on the beach and I gotta hear all these hurtful comments between my single, partying, playboy of a brother and my husband, like oh, look at that one, she's perfect. Then I here my husband say "the more the merrier"... HELLO? Wife of 20 years sitting here! Then when we are up on the blacony, I say something about it and he blows up and tells my brother and his slut everything I said and worse. Then everybody's on my case cause they're all drunk and I'm not! Then he leaves and I have to call him and apologize and beg him to come back (so we don't have to go bail his ass out of jail!) So from that point on I had to act like I was having a good time and watch her throw herself on brother and hubby and they was loving it. Hello...wife here? I have spent 20 not so good years with this man, giving him my very best that I can and he obviously DOES NOT appreciate me! In fact, if it wasn't for the money, I don't think he would even be here. It is my inheritance that bought this place and that we are living on! He's doing good if he makes $100 a week! I'm sorry. I'm hurt, I'm mad and I'm stuck! I'm so thankful today is Sunday and the liquor store is closed cause now that I'm dealing with all those feelings, I wanna be drunk and numbed out! :upset:
awprint: RUBY Imagine yourself doing What you love and loving What you do, Being happy From the inside Out, experiencing your Dreams wide awake, 
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