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[Meech]

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You machine you!

Great job on the run Papmom. It is probably one of the toughest things I've found to do. Lifting your entire body off the ground 2-3 times a second. But it gets easier if you stick with it. Doing the intervals (run/walk) is the best way to get your body use to the damands of high impact.

Very very proud of you. :goodjob:

Glad you came out of the dog incident unscathed! Hope you have a great evening!

Meech

[papmom3]

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thanks Meech!! I'm pretty amazed myself. Hope I don't overdo and get hurt.

Went for a lunchtime walk with my coworker and when I got home I harnessed up the dogs and we drove to the rail trail we usually go to. I forgot my pedometer but there is a stopwatch function on my cell phone so I could time our 2.5 mile walk. On the way back to the parking lot I had to do some running to get the boyz past oncoming dogs with as little craziness as possible. I think it's going to be very hard to get out of bed tomorrow!!

When we got home I was out in the yard with the boys throwing pieces of carrot and playing the "find it" game. When it was time to come in I noticed LM limping. No idea what he did or how he did it. I think it's his ankle but not sure. put ice on it anyway and he's now on crate rest.

Ate dinner at 9pm-way too late. i'll pay for that with HB, that's for sure.
Getting very tired now so it's time to turn in.

I'm grateful for another AF day with minimal cravings.

[Hippy Chick]

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Morning Papmom.
Hope doggies leg is OK today.
Sounds like you are still doing well. Keep it up.
Hope WW is going well too. Do you suffer with heart burn? I dont as much now I am not drinking but I find if I chew gum it starts the juices flowing which burns! (So stop chewing gum.... yes I know!).
Day off today so I can get all those little things that I have been putting off done.
Have a good one and will see you tomorrow.
Hip

[Meech]

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Hope LM's leg is better with some rest. You seem to be really filling the empty times with lots of heathy activity!

Hippy - Have a great day off.

I start the summer run group tonight. Although it feels far from summer. Cold and about to rain. I hope I get some people showing up. This weather is effecting my "happy-meter" which plays on my "energy meter". Feel like having a nap instead of a run. Have lots of AF drink choices on hand for after the run.

Need that big bright yellow thing to break through the clouds and brighten my mood.

Talk to you all tomorrow.
:l

[Hippy Chick]

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Morning Papmom.
Hope you are doing well. Sounds like quite a few of us are really struggling at the moment. I am feeling a little less stressed after reading Greeneyes fantastic post last night. Made me feel more at peace and less anxious. I love people writing threads here just at the right time when someone is needing to hear exactly what someone else feels/thinks/has been thru. This really is a powerful site to have discovered.
Take care and I wil catch up again tonight.
Hip

[papmom3]

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Hey HC, Hey Meech!
Today was take LM to the vet day where of course he presented pretty much symptom free!! What is it with dogs and cars???? Anyway, got an unexpected day off from work so that was nice. Vet gave me some anti inflammatories for the pain and told me to keep him quiet :H :H. He's so funny!! No walks for any of us today. My thighs are very sore and LM needs his rest.

Nephew came over today and took care of the yard so I know longer look like I live in the projects. Thank god for young strong nephews who think $20 is a million!!

Worked on my first Dreamweaver lesson-so excited!! It was very easy and it's all online which is awesome. By the end of the 6 weeks I'm hoping I'll have a basic website up and running for the virtual assistant company I've wanted to start for a couple of years now. My brother is my first client!!

I can't comment on how Weight Watchers is going yet because my 1st weigh in after joining last week is tomorrow. I don't feel any lighter that's for sure so we'll see. I'm also tracking everything I eat on Calorie Counter, Diet Tracking, Food Journal, Nutrition Facts at The Daily Plate. It's Lance Armstrong's website and I can see at a glance what my calorie, fat, sugar, sodium, fiber, protein and carb consumption has been for the day and week. So far my sugar and sodium have been off the charts every day!! I am floored at the hidden sugar and sodium in the everyday foods I eat. It's going to be a tough road to get those 2 things under control.

Yes HC-I have had pretty severe GRD for a number of years now. Going AF has definitely helped-it's under control with OTC Previcid and liquid Maaloz when needed. As long as I keep the fat content of my diet fairly low it stays under control. When I do get symptoms during the day, I chew gum and that seems to work for me.

Meech, you still sound a little deflated. Hope your run goes well tonite and that the sun shines for you tomorrow. Keep up the good fight-it's soooo worth it!!

I'm prepared for the storms that will be rolling in late tonite and will most likely wake me up. Basement is clean, down blanket on the couch, dehumidifier running. We're set!!

Back to work tomorrow but I do have the weekend off!! Hoping to get the pond installed finally

Time to feed the "kids" and get ready for bed. Goodnite Ladies!!
:l

[Hippy Chick]

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Morning.
Running out of time (again!) so just a quicky then need to get ready for work. Gotta be there in 40 minutes and have done nothing except surf this site. It is so easy to get absorbed in the posts here and loose a couple of hours.
Glad to hear you are going well and that your pups leg is OK. Animals give us as much grief as non-fur kids.
That tracking site sounds fantastic. Might have a look at that. I know for sure my sodium and glucose would be way off the chart!
Your nephew sounds like a treasure. Wanna swap him with my son? He is giving me grief again. Suspended AGAIN! Going to get a youth councillor as I am lost as to what to do with him. He is a good kid inside, just has lost his way.
Anyway nothing can threaten my sobriety today. Gotta run - cant go to work in my jammies and uggies......
Take care
Hip

[Meech]

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Hi Papmom - Hurray weekend is here for you now. Hope the weather is nice for you and everyone (furkids and you) are rested, recuped and ready to enjoy the time off. There's so many wonderful things we can do that don't require spending any money.

As for me, Yes I have been deflated this week. Good term cause that's how I have felt. I always get a little blue after a race. Come from such a high. Plus the weather was like summer last weekend and now it SUCKS. 5 days of dark low clouds. You would barely know I live smack dab in the middle of the mountains cause I haven't seen them in days.
Boo hoo. I'll quit whinning. :upset: Oh how the weather effects my moods.

It was good to "have" to go out for my hike with the group last night. Depsite the rain it was still good to get fresh air and get the legs moving. Wednesday night ran with the group in the pouring rain.


Today I forced myself into a hill training run this morning. My next triathlon which is just over 4 weeks away now, it's full of hills! I almost caved last night but reached for the AF drink. Thank goodness as it allowed me to do my run today. No regrets!

Talked to my sister-in-law (wife of my twin brother who passed away in March). She's doing better and the kids are doing better too, so that made be feel happy and realize how lucky I am (a bit of sad missing talk too but mostly good). It will be good for the kids and I to visit her in a week's time.

I don't work tonight so going to enjoy a rented movie and a healthy supper. Up early in the morning with my run group so no AL for me no matter how badly I want it! This is what I think of you Beast :finger::finger: Both hands! :H
Enjoy your time off and I'll check in with you later! :l

[papmom3]

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Meech!! You made me laugh!!

I've got news but don't want to go into it tonite-too tired and still taking it in. I'll post tomorrow morning after I've had a good nite's sleep.

OH, BTW, here is a cool way to whine and then stop whining: . It's HTML for start whine, stop whine. I thought it was hilarious the first time I saw it. Don't know if you have to be a techie geek to think it's funny but just in case you see me use it, you'll know what it means.

[techie]

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papmom3;890294 wrote: Meech!! You made me laugh!!

I've got news but don't want to go into it tonite-too tired and still taking it in. I'll post tomorrow morning after I've had a good nite's sleep.

OH, BTW, here is a cool way to whine and then stop whining: . It's HTML for start whine, stop whine. I thought it was hilarious the first time I saw it. Don't know if you have to be a techie geek to think it's funny but just in case you see me use it, you'll know what it means.

...be a techie geek to...oh no, not my papmom. I get no respect

[papmom3]

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&infin

[papmom3]

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Now Techie, you know I wasn't taking your name in vain right? There, there :l

[papmom3]

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It was a wierd day yesterday. Very lazy start and then had to go to my neice's dance recital at 1pm. Didn't get home until after 3 and by then way too hot to do anything but shop. Got a small pool for the boyz, really just devil dog as he's the only one who likes water. I had a blast watching him splashing about and taking the hose in and out of the pool. I'll train him to fill his own pool one day!!

I felt restless all day. Probably because I didn't sleep much at all the night before. I had an appointment to redo the kidney function test which I was positive would come back normal as I was convinced I was dehydrated last time due to fasting. Wrong. They called me not 3 hours later and scheduled me for a Renal US on Tuesday. My number was the same as before and a search on the net told me that I am in Stage 3 kidney disease. WTF?? Oh, and she reminded me again that I am now diabetic -Type II. They can't of course seem to find those results from 2 weeks ago so I've never actually seen the number. They gave me a pamphlet from the local med center on Type II and that literature says I don't have Diabetes so I'm very confused. They scheduled me for an appt with a nutritionist in Sept (really? 3 months away? I could be dead by then!!). I've been tracking my food intake on my own and it's deadly high in sugar and sodium. It's very overwhelming to try to find a plan to follow that is low in both and low in fat and possibly protein. Maybe starvation is a good plan? I definitely need help with this. My whole lifestyle has been based on highly processed food due to my work schedule. Now that I was forced to quit one job I should have more time to devote to fixing meals that are more nutritious for me but it's going to be very hard to get in the habit of actually preparing meals instead of popping something in the microwave. Sigh. Very overwhelming.

So, in the space of 3 months, I've quit AL, learned that I have to lower my sodium intake, practically quit eating sugar and try to lose 40 lbs as well as get in the habit of cooking and exercising. Right now all I want to do is curl up into a ball and not peek out from under the covers. Oh, and the chance that my kidneys will go back to normal is pretty much non existent and I have dialysis and probably a transplant in my future.

On top of that my doctor was talking about redoing the A1C in Sept. I reminded her we had discussed doing it every month for 3 months in order to get an average. She said no, that's not the way they do it and she is the doctor. Seriously, she said that. So I misunderstood the first conversation and all the websites. No need to pull that crap.

So today I get to &infin at least until I get to my sister's tonite and then back to cheerful optimistic auntie, sister and daughter.

I'm going to go out and dig some dirt now and get that damn pond in and running if it kills me. Then if I'm still alive I might clean this pigstye of a house. Too bad going AF didn't change my housekeeping habits like it did for some people.

[Cinders]

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(((Papmom3)))

I don't know what to say. This is a lot to digest. I am sure you are in a whirl.

Thinking about you.

Love,
Cindi

[papmom3]

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Thanks Cindi-I needed that hug and the good thoughts!!
I spent about an hour and a half trying to get &^%$# pond level-almost collapsed in tears. Thought about hiring a professional which is nuts as it's a VERY small pond. Then dug in again-no stupid pond is going to beat me!!! Well, I got it as level as I could and filled it up. It doesn't look level but I dont' give a sh*t anymore. I put the fountain in, filled up the sides with dirt (still have a bit more to do) and called it a day. Tomorrow nite I'll stop at the pond store and get some oxygenators and duckweed and water lily's and try to figure out what to plant around it. At least the tough part is done and I feel much better.
Still overwhelmed with putting together an eating plan but I'll make some phone calls tomorrow to see if I can get in to see the RD sooner.
Have a great day all!!