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[papmom3]

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I'm terrified of storms too Meech. As a small kid I used to have recurring tornado dreams. They should have rated Wizard of Oz PG back then LOL!!

There was a killer tornado that destroyed my neighborhood back in 1954. You can still see the path as the houses on the opposite side of the street from me are newer (mine was built in 1929). I just know we're due for another one. :upset:

Yes, the AC stayed on today thank god. It was so beautiful out the whole day, warm but dry.

Sis and I got our pedis tonite. Ahhhhhh. Bliss.

She's taking her hubby to a quaint Inn for his 50th birthday and is surprising him with a professional massage which he's never had. She's getting a facial. It's right on the ocean and I just know they are going to have a great time. I staying overnite at their house to keep my 13 yo neice company and to make sure the boys don't decide to have a impromptu party :H:H . She and I pulled so much over our parent's eyes that we are ready for these two LOL!!

Pups are crying to go out so I'll say goodnite. Sweet dreams everyone!!

:l

[Meech]

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Quick hello and I gotta go pack.

Sounds like you have a great plan for the weekend. Enjoy the pedicure and time with your neice.


Touch base tomorrow before I'm away from you and MWO for a week and a bit.

Have a great night!

[Meech]

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Hi Papmom,

Take care. Hope you have a great Sunday off. My next goal is AF for 10days while I'm in Ontario (then more after that). I will check in when I get back (probably July 7 or 8). I will send a BIG cyber hug your way and hope the eating plan, exercise plan keeps progressing for you!
Your Good MWO friend, Meechie

[papmom3]

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Safe travels my friend!! I'll be sending YOU huge cyber pings that your visit goes smoothly and that the memories that pop up are happy, not sad ones. I truly hope that you will be able to attain your goal because I feel that is what you really want. Remember your plan everyday and don't be afraid to ask for support. You could be very very surprised by your family.
I'll be thinking of you daily and visualizing all the cool things you and your family will be doing. Most of all: HAVE FUN!!

:l :h

ps: If you get in a bind and need to talk to someone quick, call me. I'll PM you the number. Don't hesitate to use it no matter what time of day or nite (hopefully caller ID will say CANADA so I'll know it's you)!!

[papmom3]

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Busy day today and HOT HOT HOT!! Spent most of it inside cleaning (shudder). I am so housework phobic but there comes a time when even I can't stand it. Sink is clean a la Flylady, back part of the house is CLEAN and I'm not sneezing as much as I was. My bedroom is nice and cool with the AC finally on and I decluttered so it's somewhat peaceful back there.
It'd be even nicer if I ever got around to painting it.

Even got some reading time on my chaise tonite before the squeeters got really bad. Nice.

Filled the pool up for Devil Dog and chuckled as I watched him walk in and out, in and out. Earlier I put the sprinkler on for him and he had a grand time chasing the spray.

Got 3 loads of laundry done, 2 of which I hung up on my new Clothesline. They were dry in a couple of hours and the rest are hanging up inside. Only had to use the dryer for one load. I :h my new clothesline!!

I am exhausted but still giddy at all I got done today despite the heat and all because I wasn't hungover!! It was a good day and I'm looking forward to tomorrow-really!!

Tired dogs and I are heading off to AC bliss and my book.

[Hippy Chick]

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Hi Papmom.
Good to catch up on all your posts. So pleased for you not being diabetic. That is good news. Sounds like you caught it in time and now that you are aware of it, you can take steps to ensure it doesnt escalate.
You are having really hot weather and we are having really cold weather. While we were away they were having night temps hovering around zero which is really unusual for us. Luckily we missed it as in Queensland it is further north and can be tropical.
Thanks for your comments and support on my post in the general section. Was a huge lesson for me to learn. I never thought I would be pleased I drank, but as it dispelled so many myths I had built up in my own mind, it has actually taken alot of pressure of myself. And I dont have any worries about cravings or wanting to keep drinking. So as far as I am concerned, it is over.
Am abit concerned about Meech's comments on your posts so will go and check on how she has been doing.
Good to be back and will catchya tomorrow.
Hip

[Hippy Chick]

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Morning PM3.
Back to my usual routine of checking in before work. I should get ready before I get on here as it is usually a rush after I have finished here.
Hope you and the pups are doing well.
Will call in again when I can.
Take care
Hip

[papmom3]

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hey HC-so glad you're back!! Thanks for popping in. I haven't written the past couple of nites because I'm still trying to deal the reality of the diabetes and the kidney disease. Even if I don't have full blown diabetes, I'm so close it's worth dealing with things as if I have.
I feel like I've been left on my own to deal with this. I can't see the dietician until August and the nephrologist is booking into Sept. I'm doing the best I can with web searches. I'll have to do some more serious food shopping this weekend as now I need to go low protein as well as low sodium and sugar. It's all very overwhelming but I'm determined to deal with this now and intelligently.

Hope you had a good day!!

[Hippy Chick]

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Hi Papmom.
You sound overwhelmed. It is hard trying to deal with all you have lately. I'm sorry there is nothing I can do for you. Only thing I can say is to remind me how well you are doing as you are not drinking! Please dont worry to much (easy to say, not easy to do), the dietician will be able to help you when you finally see her/him.
Just take each day as it comes - that's all you can do.
Take care and stay in touch. PM if you need.
Hip

[papmom3]

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hey HC-thanks for the support. I'm feeling a little better today. Have 4 days off for the holiday and feel like I have finally have some time to gather some info and tools until I can see the nutritionist and specialist.
I'll keep you updated.

[Hippy Chick]

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Hi PM3.
Hope you are enjoying your holiday. Always good to have a break from work!
I have got rid of my visitors (who arrived a day after we got home), finally unpacked from our holiday, have finished that HUGE pile of washing and ironing that seem to come on holidays with us, so now it's time for me to concentrate on catching up on MWO.
Seems like the nest is very quiet these days. Not too sure where everyone has gone. Was just cleaning out my in box and realised there are alot of people who have disappeared. Savon, Jolie, Sophie, Tranq, Runningwind..... I hope their absence means that they are on top of this beast and no longer need us..... Unfortunately I dont think so.
Anyway I am still here, you are still here and I am going to check on Meech, she should be home by now.
So take care and I will see you tomorrow.
Hip

[papmom3]

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Hey HC,
You and Meech win the prize for the most energy LOL!!!
You're right-a lot of people have disappeared. I only knew Tranq and RW. I don't know what happened to Tranq but RW was fine according to MB who talks to her regularly. that was a few weeks ago. I think RW is working out some issues on her own and with professionals. I wish her the very best.
I'm still struggling with this whole kidney disease and diabetes thing. Feeling very overwhelmed and frustrated with lack of professional help right now. I HATE waiting. Patience has never been a virtue of mine. I want a answers and a plan NOW!!
Anyway, finished cleaning except for dishes. gotta go do them and then shower. Dad and Sis will be here in 2 hours to pick me up.

:l

[papmom3]

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Got back a couple of hours ago from the July 4th small town parade and BBQ at my brother's house. Parade was smaller than last year but nephew still looked cute as button waving from the fire truck!! Food was awesome and I ate way too much of everything. Weight Watchers weigh in is NOT going to be pretty this week!
HC mentioned divine intervention when my nurse friend showed up unexpectedly Friday evening right after I had struggled with stopping at the liquor store on the way home from errands. I didn't stop of course, but what if I had? that would have been tough to explain.
funny thing is, divine intervention happened again today at the BBQ. I started off with seltzer even tho my brother opened the PG and offered me a glass. I said no and was OK. But as the afternoon wore on, and me still feeling overwhelmed, sad, melancholy, angry you name it, I was started to think "Oh what the heck. It doesn't matter if I have a couple of glasses tonite, soon enough I'll be on such a restrictive diet that I'll probably want a quick death.". Yep, that was my thinking today. I said to myself, as soon as my sister pours herself one, I'll have one. I wasn't driving BTW. Well, guess what? My sis didn't have one drink today!! Not one!! No beer when she got there-no wine with dinner. I even prodded her a bit and she said no, she was fine. Hmmmmm. Very unusual. I of course couldn't be the first one to have a glass so the bottle stayed uncorked but full. The red went fast, curtesy of my dad and my SIL (that's unusual for her too) but the white went untouched. So, my guardian angel was looking out for me once again and I don't think I should take too much more advantage of her. I'm feeling only slightly better that I didn't drink and I know I'll feel much better when I wake up in the morning with only my allergies to deal with.

[mollyka]

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Well done PM3, I've just responded to you in the nest and came here to see what your temptation was, certainly seems someone is looking out for you!! I suppose 'Divine' intervention won't keep happening so be (having a senior moment, can't think of the word!) careful (wary - right word still not coming, but you know what I mean!) and prepared for the next time you feel that way. You've a lot of AF time under your belt and I found I got very careless around that stage, I thought I was grand and boy, I wasn't!!!!
Try not to worry too much about the health issues, I have to believe that the docs couldn't have been too worried about you or they wouldn't have sent you off with no advice - maybe you are marginal?
Anyway, well done on your successful AF 4th off to work now will talk later!!
Molly:h

[Hippy Chick]

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Hi there.
Glad your sister wasnt in the drinking mood. You would have regretted it and only added to your list of problems.... good on your sister.

I am abit like you, very impatient. I want everything NOW and get really annoyed if I dont get it when I want. Maybe that is something I need to work on.

Monday nights are the nights we get together with my mum and dad for dinner and Monday nights are the nights I usually get really pissed off. My mum and dad fight at the best of times but when my dad has been drinking it get worse. My dad and husband drink a couple of bottles of red and seem to egg each other on to who can be the most obnoxious drunk. Usually my dad wins however tonight my husband has won the prize. And the prize is me ignoring him for the rest of the night. My husband gets very loud and talks over the top of everyone (even more than usual!) because his opinion is SO much more important than anyone else. I hope I didnt get like that when I was drunk. It is always a good reminder for me why I chose not to drink. I am not very tolerant now when people around me are drinking. I have always tried not the be a hypocrite but I have had enough of pretending it doesnt really annoy me.

Glad your parade and celebrations went well. Dont beat yourself up about eating too much, gotta get some enjoyment out of life!

Hope the pups are doing well. Take care and will catch up again tomorrow.
HC